Our disease is so cunning that it can get us into impossible situations.
Basic Text, p. 83
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Some of us say, My disease is talking to me. Others say, My head wont turn off. Still others refer to the committee in my mind or the monkey on my back. Lets face it. We suffer from an incurable malady that continues to affect us, even in recovery. Our disease gives us warped information about whats going on in our lives. It tells us not to look at ourselves because what well see is too scary. Sometimes it tells us were not responsible for ourselves and our actions; other times, it tells us that everything wrong with the world is our fault. Our disease tricks us into trusting it.
The NA program provides us with many voices that counter our addiction, voices we can trust. We can call our sponsor for a reality check. We can listen to the voice of an addict trying to get clean. The ultimate solution is to work the steps and draw on the strength of a Higher Power. That will get us through those times when our disease is talking.
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Just for today: I will ignore the voice of my addiction. I will listen to the voice of my program and a Power greater than myself.
I know before NA my disease talked to me daily and led me in the wrong direction .I have found voices I can trust from people I met in NA.I can call my sponsor for direction when needed.I now listen to the voice of my program and a Power greater than myself.
