I heard a lady with many years of sobriety say outside a meeting the other day that she was afraid of things happening in the world, my comment back was, " this program gives us courage, we should not live in fear, she shut up :)
But its true, we all lived in fear some in terror for so long we should be living in a lot less fear now then we used to , some fear is good i imagine? but im not going to live in total fear all the time I have enough QUIRKS already to worry about fear
I have another surgery coming up on Dec on the 4th and fear rises then I just say hey i've done this a few times already same old thing, if I die i always say I hope its when im under during surgery LOL i just worry about infection which i've never had yet out of 3 surgerys but this is the 3rd one on this same problem and the stupid doctor mentioned I was pushing my luck, so what, its got to be done, hernia in my stomach near my belly button, it hurts and causes intestinal problems so I have no choice. I'll post after surgery pics with the 10 or so staples they use to close me up ok :)
-- Edited by BigV on Thursday 16th of October 2014 06:51:22 PM
BigV , Keep your strength.Pray a lot .I've has quite a few surgeries , it always scary when they do it , you have to put your life in the Higher Powers hands. I'm praying for you to get through it alright.
-- Edited by cdbuckberry on Thursday 23rd of October 2014 01:08:28 PM
Each year it gets worse, 53 years old this year and i cant pick up a bag of rocks without something hurting the next day
ok so fell off ladder 2 weeks ago thank you GOD for not letting me be hurt worse, i jambed my knee which cause a bunch of swelling thats now gone into my foot and takes forever to leave, anyhow i heard a horrible story last week a young guy was in paint store his dad fell earlier that week from about 15 feet up and he got so injured, his face smashed skull broken wrist and ribs, multiple surgerys. So i'm all freaked out I have a big job coming up with 2 storys steep ass roof and dormers on top to paint, just going to be extra extra careful on this one.
and my guts are bothering me a lot WAH WAH WAH see how w ( I ) am LOL whiny wimp!!!!
Im just really thankful I have God in my life today and this program and a few others which are all the same :) without it id be a drunken drugged out mess, more likely dead.
Thanks for the well wishes and you all stay well also, I heard a good one today
Just be careful,were all getting older . I used to do framing , I can't go up on a roof now without feeling like I'm going to fall off .We don't heal as fast as when we were young . I know I'm 61 .
There are some days when everything including my eyebrows hurt,especially after caring for my 3 1/2 year old and 11 month old grand daughters...One thing I think WE all will agree is the things WE have done to ourselves in active addiction and yet... still kicking.... ,me Im 67, can only be credited to the God of our own understandings grace and mercy and some daily work....To be Lucid ,clean and still aging is indeed a true blessing.Some days I really have to remind myself of that...Be blessed brother.....The last time I couldn't break the lugs on my daughters car when she had a flat and some young 20 year old came over to help,turned em in a minute,was the first realization that I am diminishing in areas but I continue to move forward in Grace ..You will also my friend, that I believe because as we look around WE know it definitely could be worse....I bench press 45 lbs a lot of times instead 145 less times just a lot of adjustment ,and as we age there are many adjustments to make im sure you would agree.......
-- Edited by MIKEF on Sunday 26th of October 2014 08:15:26 PM
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Indeed aging sucks. This 60 year old body of mine can't do what it once could and has constant aches here and there. But living with the degrading body of older age sure beats the alternative! AND I refuse to grow up in mind and spirit lol!
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. .....some big changes for me lately at 55y.o. Iin august I was doing my sport,competitive sailing,and found recovery to be slow for my knees,,,then 5 weeks ago,my knees hurt during the event-not a good sign.,and I haven't gotten off the pain-train since! A few doctor visits later,and I'm diagnosed with severe osteo arthritis in both knees,,,as they're saying 'bone-on-bone',,,directly referred to surgery for full knee replacements,,,as well as hips and thumbs not being far behind. .....In the past few weeks I've had to drop my life's sport and related work,,,shop for walking poles,,,even get a toilet seat riser(!!)......'take my will and my life',,,indeed!
...the 'writing on the wall' was there for a few -years-,,I didn't listen to the earlier diagnosis and follow through with finding a less physical set of sport,work,,,and now I'm caught in a corner...as one person put it.....'if you don't hear the whisper,,,you'll feel the boot'!!
...I have to say it's been difficult to keep up an attitude of gratitude and hope,,,,certainly been smoking again.......but at least some times I remember there's a plan better than my own in place,,,as long as I keep remembering to surrender to my HP's will.
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...gawd,,,please don't let me -ever- forget why I came here in the first place!!(my 'senility' prayer)
I have osteo BS to mikah sometimes i need a cane, it can even be worse when im resting to much and I have been this last week in between jobs, so I started back at the gym for some very light machine high rep work outs and after 2 days am feeling just a little better, getting some circulation is helping, pumping the muscle up just a bit look a little less bowed in the belly, Im going to try and enjoy this little bit of time off before surgery then maybe in january try and get back into work again.
Nikah I had no clue you were so old, dean your older then my grandpas choneys LOL
...funny thing,,I just joined the local gym today.
I should be grateful to be canadian 'bout now...the only cost here is the waiting time...they say the knee replacements would be $40G -each- in yeww esss ehhh...the gratitude of hope....as I learn the gift of patience,,,,and allow shots of pain to be reminders to slow down,breathe,,and think of blessed things.
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...gawd,,,please don't let me -ever- forget why I came here in the first place!!(my 'senility' prayer)
