Ok so i might as well start off by saying that when i was 15, i started IVing heroin and continued to do so for about 2 years. after so many close calls with the law, multiple overdoses, and losing everything, i joined a suboxone program. They started me off on 2 8mg strips a day. but after many failed drug tests for pot and benzodiazapines, they kicked me out after giving me a dwindling dose to prevent the withdraws. That was the old me, my old life and deffinantly something that i am nothing close to proud of. I am now 18, and in December of 2013 i came home from a military school in Missouri. After hanging out with the wrong crowd, i began to use dope agian. After a couple months of that I started to think suboxone was the way to go. Instead of buying dope i started buying subs to simply feel well and get that stupid notion that i have to be "fucked up" all the time. Now its been 6 months and i am down to 1mg a day( i tare the 8mgs into 7-8 strips, sometimes maybe 5 or 6 strips if i dont have scissors and dont have the time. I feel so addicted. every morning i wake up with a simply dehydrated feeling, feeling like im sweating on my insides and just have slight chills. also until i take my dose, everything is just fuzzy and i feel scared to be in social settings because everything just seems so bright and just not right, i can feel the sweat coming out of my body but im cold at the same time, and when im around my girlfriend i just feel akward, like i stick out and say stupid things, like im uptight and trying to hard instead of just being my normal self. the anxiety is the worst part in my opinion, and i simply have stayed on the 1mg of sub so that i can talk to my gf normally and not feel simply "weird". I really want to get off this and go back to normal life but im so scared abut wds, not the pain because ive done it time and time agian, but because of the anxiety and the "fogginess" Can someone please tell me what i should do to prevent these feelings? im so tired of hiding this addiction from my family and my gf, i feel so trapped and alone and am to scared to tell any of them because i feel they eould freak out and my gf would leave me. so im on my own on this, i want to end it so i dont have to hide it anymore. Please Help!!! I need advice and guidance so badly.
. ...hi Sam ..thanks for sharing your story....it's clear you've taken the first step of the 12 we go through in NA.....''We admitted that we were powerless over our addiction, that our lives had become unmanageable'',,,,and you're reaching out--something we've all had to do.
...I cannot give you any specific advice ,except to say that I and many addicts have found relief in attending meetings....you can try this... http://www.na.org/meetingsearch/..which will assist you in finding phonelines and meetings in your area.
...there IS relief for you as -many- have found...you've taken a first step--don't stop now!!
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...gawd,,,please don't let me -ever- forget why I came here in the first place!!(my 'senility' prayer)
i have gone to hundreds of Na meetings, but the thing is that i just want to get off the drug that was only suppose to keep me from doing drugs in the first place! thank you for the help! does anyone have any story of how they got off subs? please help!
Go cold turkey it is hard and living hell for a while suboxone is not easy to kick. I know you can do it don't give in. Only you can get that stuff out of your system.
i have gone to hundreds of Na meetings, but the thing is that i just want to get off the drug that was only suppose to keep me from doing drugs in the first place! thank you for the help! does anyone have any story of how they got off subs? please help!
....sorry I don't have specific experience to share for suboxone,,,I hope that comes to you soon--definitely keep asking and looking.....but don't give up on the program either,,I'm pretty sure there's some relief there as well.
....You WILL make it...one day at a time.
...do you have a sponsor?.....these things are in place ,,the program is as it is because it DOES help MANY addicts recover.
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...gawd,,,please don't let me -ever- forget why I came here in the first place!!(my 'senility' prayer)
i have gone to hundreds of Na meetings, but the thing is that i just want to get off the drug that was only suppose to keep me from doing drugs in the first place! thank you for the help! does anyone have any story of how they got off subs? please help!
NA is a program that focuses on the Disease of Addiction. Many of us have tried substituting different drugs for our drug of choice. I wanted to be able to use socially acceptable drugs. I just wanted to stay off hard drugs. I tried for years but could not simply use socially regardless the drug. For me One is Too Many and a Thousand Never Enough. Having failed we surrendered to our powerlessness over all drugs and Recovery is then possible.
My name's Mike, I'm a grateful Recovering Addict Clean by the Power of NA through the Grace of my Higher Power whom I choose to call God.
We will still be here when you're ready. We pray you survive until that time.
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i simply need a guidline type of idea to help me come off of it.
i just need to to be told how to come off of it, whether it be tapering or going cold turkey with the help of whatever possible. someone just please give me some type of advice on how to come off of it
i simply need a guidline type of idea to help me come off of it.
i just need to to be told how to come off of it, whether it be tapering or going cold turkey with the help of whatever possible. someone just please give me some type of advice on how to come off of it
thank you,
sam
I never used a Heroin substitute, went cold turkey from China White while overseas. Don't know an easier, softer way. A week of pure hell. I survived. Today 33 years Clean the NA Way.
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. ...hmmm...I know that the H has a lot more -physical- side-effects than the C,,,,but does anyone actually die while going cold turkey? ........or do they 'just' think,wish they were??
...I can only talk of personal experience with C,,but I sure thought I'd die,,and I understand the brain chemistry re-orientates to think that way.......but it turned out to be a mind/spirit over matter issue---I had to -really- want it,,,and the NA program,,,a sponsor and surrender were key.......how is it with the big H???
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...gawd,,,please don't let me -ever- forget why I came here in the first place!!(my 'senility' prayer)
. ...hmmm...I know that the H has a lot more -physical- side-effects than the C,,,,but does anyone actually die while going cold turkey? ........or do they 'just' think,wish they were??
...I can only talk of personal experience with C,,but I sure thought I'd die,,and I understand the brain chemistry re-orientates to think that way.......but it turned out to be a mind/spirit over matter issue---I had to -really- want it,,,and the NA program,,,a sponsor and surrender were key.......how is it with the big H???
My understanding downers (ludes etc. ) and even alcohol withdrawal can be more physically dangerous than H. H you're pretty much simply puking up anything and everything even water comes back up as greenish stomach bile for days and every cell of your body seems frozen from the inside out... Best recollection, it's been over 3 decades since I've been there done that yay!
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. ......so no easy way out?...just gotta go through it,eh!? ........I'm glad I had the help of the program. I know I wouldn't have gotten this far on my own.
...Sammy...I wish you well,,hope you find a way through. I know that it seems like hell now,,,but it won't be too long and you'll be looking back,,,remembering how desperate you 'were' today,,,,and praying you'll never go back.....hence my 'senility prayer'
It sounds like you might need to fess-up with the loved ones....I'll bet they'll be relieved and even supportive.....I know that honesty issues were a big barrier for me,,but the biggest lament from the gf was that I didn't share what I was going through--if there's love-there's caring!!....all the best!
-- Edited by mikah on Tuesday 19th of August 2014 06:18:41 PM
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...gawd,,,please don't let me -ever- forget why I came here in the first place!!(my 'senility' prayer)
. ......so no easy way out?...just gotta go through it,eh!?
As addicts it's natural to want a painless, easy way out of using drugs or a particular drug. We don't want to feel the pain of withdrawal, period. Substitute one for a another, a miracle pill, and end up addicted to the miracle pill. To the best of my knowledge there is no miracle drug to make kicking a drug habit easy. If there was why would hundreds of thousands of addicts be Clean the NA Way!
It may not be easy, but Clean the NA is way worth the short term pain. IT IS SIMPLE however, don't pick up no matter what. Once the drugs are out of the system we have road map to living life and staying Clean and Free, the 12 Steps.
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Work the Steps or Die MF. (My Friend :) Clean One Day At a Time by The Grace of God through The Power of NA
. ......so no easy way out?...just gotta go through it,eh!?
As addicts it's natural to want a painless, easy way out of using drugs or a particular drug. We don't want to feel the pain of withdrawal, period. Substitute one for a another, a miracle pill, and end up addicted to the miracle pill. To the best of my knowledge there is no miracle drug to make kicking a drug habit easy. If there was why would hundreds of thousands of addicts be Clean the NA Way!
It may not be easy, but Clean the NA is way worth the short term pain. IT IS SIMPLE however, don't pick up no matter what. Once the drugs are out of the system we have road map to living life and staying Clean and Free, the 12 Steps.
...mannnn...I'm remembering how I stayed out for months longer than I wanted to,,
,,,cause I didn't want my gf to know
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...gawd,,,please don't let me -ever- forget why I came here in the first place!!(my 'senility' prayer)
