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Lionslicer


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Im dave..26. My girlfriend i are opiate addicts. We live day to day finding oxy. Usually 30-120mg a day. She is currently in rehab. She is on her 6th day and i am trying to keep up on my own. her family has the money to provide professional help, i have no way of doing so right now...has anyone out there made it? What is making it? Being a year or two clean...where is your mind? How do you think about About the drug? It seems whenever i seek help online, on these forum sites it is people saying you are doomed... after 6 days i feel so proud for doing this on my own, but at the opposite end of the emotional spectrum...i feel like i lost my best friend...oxy. My way of life the last 4 years. the hunt alone was an addiction. Its sad, i would feel better before even  taking the drug. As long as i had a bird in my hand.  my best friend died and everything reminds me of it, from pipe clamps i use to shave them down, to seeing a straw, a blade, a picture frame or any other glass surface, running into a store when i sat outside of making a deal. I think the hardest part is learning to look at life long term. im 26 and my uncle died at 30 when i was 10. I honestly cant see how my life will be 4 days from now let alone 4 years. i sometimes feel like i wasnt made to live life. Like i  picture myself dead before i am able to grow old. I know this post is all over the place. But thats how i feel right now..this so fucking unbelievably hard. whats getting me through is being apart from my girlfriend..knowing shes trying to better herself. Not taking anything away from her but im sure the suboxen theyre giving her helps...but do i need that? Can i find my own way?  I really need some coping tips. I know i lose points smoking weed but its the only thing that helps. i was thinking of buying a couple benzos...is this horrible idea? I hate benzos, ive never enjoyed them, even the feeling they give me while im withdrawling from oxy. Its not a high i enjoy. how do you deal with the restless legs? Gahhhhhh



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Welcome. Dave, I came into the program for the last time at 27 years old with a $3000/day habit. I'm 49 now and I'm still 100% clean. So yes, someone out there has made it - there are many of us.

Yes, it is hard. Yes, it is worth it. NA makes one promise: freedom from active addiction but there is so much more. I've just been diagnosed with a disease that will take me. Could be ten minutes, could be ten years - but it will win in the end I'm told. I can't work any more, waiting on SSDI and have had to cut up clothes for toilet paper this year. I just got an eviction notice a few days ago and have to be out at the end of the month and when it arrived I didn't have a penny to my name - literally, and no prospects for money. And yet, I'm happier than I've ever been. Really.

Get to an NA meeting. Tell someone that you are new. They will help. When I crawled into this program I had no money for a treatment center either - I mean seriously, if I had money, I would have bought another bag of dumb a$$. I went to 372 meetings in my first 90 days. I lived at meetings till I could live out of them. I still go, but not like that. Been to two meetings this week. Meetings are my coping tip. Good luck - come back often and post till your fingers fall off.

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...welcome Lion......you say...... ''I think the hardest part is learning to look at life long term.'' .....

......that's one of the most important things I've learnt in the rooms of NA....this is a 'JUST FOR TODAY' program.....all I have to do,,especially in the beginning,,,is keep myself clean for this minute,hour,day--what happens tomorrow is another day....I only need stay clean 'ONE DAY AT A TIME'!

...I really admire that you've managed your 6 days--CONGRATS!!,,,,,but as Angell says,,,find a meeting in your area---go to it,,,,,,there is no better relief than one addict helping another stay clean......you KNOW you want to!

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Dave R


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I've found that the only thing that worked for me was complete abstinence from all drugs, including pot and alcohol.
The problem with trying to use only one drug for me was that used it addictively and it eventually took me back to other drugs.
What worked for me was going to NA meetings, working the 12 steps, getting a sponsor, and getting involved.
You will find out about these things if you go to meetings. There is a lot of support and hope there.




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Davethewave


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You CAN do it, you just need to try.

 

Go to a meting, put your hand up, and surrender. Giving up and asking for help is where we all start.



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Welcome Lionslicer! My name's Mike, today I'm a grateful Recovering Addict. Clean today by the Grace of my Higher Power whom I choose to call God through the Power of Narcotics Anonymous.

Congratulations on 6 days off opiates, Heroin was my drug of choice. Get to NA Meetings. I don't care if you smoke pot before you go to get the courage - just go! The only requirement for NA Membership is the desire to stop using. Go to a minimum of 90 meetings in 90 days. Give yourself a chance. Don't think about tomorrow or next week, go to a meeting TODAY. One day at a Time is how this works. I went to 2 to 3 meetings a day everyday loaded on pot before and after for 3 weeks before the Miracle happened. Today I've been Clean from all drugs for 33 years, One Day at a Time.

Keep Coming Back, NA Works if You Work it. You alone can do it, but you can't do it alone.



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MIKEF


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Welcome to MIP Dave..

I am an addict named Mike...WE always suggest making a meeting,finding a sponsor(those that find sponsorship valuable get the most from the Program)and incorporating what the program considers our solution,,THE STEPS, applied in all areas of our lives ,workied with a sponsor.The healing begins by putting down the substance.The work begins finding the "exact nature" of what goes on with us.The fellowship and meeting places,  where you can share and learn about your illness from other addicts and the things we do to remain clean One day at a time..If you are not familiar with the Program of the fellowship here is a link to our website with information on meeting places in your area and literature you can look through to get an idea of what goes on.WE do again suggest FTF(face to face meetings)as the best means for us to begin the daily work of recovery...Good step reaching out,,Congrats on 6 days,,any day clean for us is a miracle....heres the link

 

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-- Edited by MIKEF on Monday 21st of July 2014 03:42:10 PM

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shjcross


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I, too, had a problem with opiates. After 13 years trying to get "it", I'm happy to say I have 2 years clean. All the ideas here will help. And NA meetings don't cost anything. Good luck, it's hard work, but it can be done.

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