We wanted an easy way out.... When we did seek help, we were only looking for the absence of pain.
Basic Text, p. 5
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Somethings not working. In fact, somethings been wrong for a long time, causing us pain and complicating our lives. The problem is that, at any given moment, it always appears easier to continue bearing the pain of our defects than to submit to the total upheaval involved in changing the way we live. We may long to be free of pain, but only rarely are we willing to do whats truly necessary to remove the source of pain from our lives.
Most of us didnt begin seeking recovery from addiction until we were sick and tired of being tired and sick. The same is true of the lingering character defects weve carried through our lives. Only when we cant bear our shortcomings one moment longer, only when we know that the pain of change cant be as bad as the pain were in today, are most of us willing to try something different.
Thankfully, the steps are always there, no matter what were sick and tired of. The irony is that, as soon as we make the decision to begin the Twelve Step process, we realize our fears of change were groundless. The steps offer a gentle program of change, one step at a time. No single step is so frightening that we cant work it, by itself. As we apply the steps to our lives, we experience a change that frees us.
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Just for today: No matter what prevents me from living a full, happy life, I know the program can help me change, a step at a time. I need not be afraid of the Twelve Steps.
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....it took me some time before it sunk in,,,but it IS clear that NOBODY fails who -thoroughly- engages in the NA program.
...after a while,,,I'm learning that it's important to -WANT- to stay clean,,,and do what I need to do each and every day.
.....when I'm not doing enough,,,or 'almost' enough,,,I feel my old thoughts,,,old ways creeping into my mind....a good time to get back to basics!
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...gawd,,,please don't let me -ever- forget why I came here in the first place!!(my 'senility' prayer)
I know when I found the rooms I was sick and tired had used all of my life . I knew I had hit bottom and that I had to do something , I found a meeting went , gave it a chance , it seemed to work . I found at the meetings that there were lots of addicts who were sick tired of using .Working the 12 Steps teaches us a way to change our lives and ways .
