...the decision to ask for Gods help is our greatest source of strength and courage.
Basic Text, p. 26
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A challenge is anything that dares us to succeed. Things new and unfamiliar serve as challenges, whether those things appear good or bad to us. We are challenged by obstacles and opposition from within ourselves and from without. New and difficult things, obstacles and opposition, all are a part of life on lifes terms. Living clean means learning to meet challenges.
Many of us, consciously or unconsciously, took drugs to avoid meeting challenges. Many of us were equally afraid of failure and success. Each time we declined the days challenge, we suffered a loss of self-esteem. Some of us used drugs to mask the shame we felt. Each time we did that, we became even less able to meet our challenges and more likely to use.
By working the NA program, weve found the tools we need to successfully meet any challenge. Weve come to believe in a Power greater than ourselves, a Power that cares for our will and our lives. Weve asked that Power to remove our character defects, those things that made our lives unmanageable. Weve taken action to improve our conscious contact with that Higher Power. Through the steps, weve been given the ability to stop using drugs and start living.
Each day, we are faced with new challenges. And each day, through working our program of recovery, we are given the grace to meet those challenges.
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Just for today: I will ask my Higher Power to help me squarely meet todays challenge.
. ....ahh,HUuuu,,again sooo true! .....as my life has been moving forwards,,as I work through my step four and accomplishing some good things in life,,,,,I've been feeling a lot of resistance,,along with a lot of pain........unable to finish a project that's between me and a bold new step forwards.
....I spent home time,,,working steps,,,decided to look at some old step-work---amazingly,,I saw that my last step work had finished -exactly- where I am now!!,,,whatamessage!!....I spent the weekend in spirit and recovery asking my HP for a graceful way to go through my 'wall of resistance',,,visited an old recovery house,saw and remembered clearly what brought me in in the first place!,,,
.......yesterday,I was able to proceed with my work,,have some solid answers to what I can and can't do,,and feel a serenity,grace, and purpose that was lacking before.....the more I remember to remember my higher power,,,,the more my HP helps me meet my challenges---I am now more ready to allow success in my life!
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...gawd,,,please don't let me -ever- forget why I came here in the first place!!(my 'senility' prayer)
I did everything to not admit I had a problem.I found the tools I needed in recovery to change my way of looking at things.I asked for help from the Higher Power to help me remove my defects of character , through working the Steps I found a new way to live.
