.....5 years ago,,in the depths of my active addiction,, my front tooth fell out....I was struggling to stay clean,,but felt like this event 'marked' me to addiction.......eventually a dentist put a post in ,,built a tooth,thanks to canada's medicaid funding---I was certainly grateful!
.........................yesterday that tooth fell out again......instead of running to my dealer for a pity-party,,I phoned my dentist,,,got a mold made,,,and will have a replacement tooth by the end of today.....all on my own earnings!!!!
...it feels good to stand on my own feet progressively more each day....paying my own rent for the 1st in a long time 2 months ago,,,,,debts paid off,,,,,,and now the lovely dentist........it's a miracle!!
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...gawd,,,please don't let me -ever- forget why I came here in the first place!!(my 'senility' prayer)
.....the replacement wasn't right-it'll be a couple of days before I have my front tooth back....I decided to work steps rather than hit a meeting! The situation helps me see that I -do- have a certain vanity ......a discomfort to go to a meeting ,,a bit of a show/shine,,and be proud of my mark of addiction......at least I got some steps done,,and learnt more about myself
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...gawd,,,please don't let me -ever- forget why I came here in the first place!!(my 'senility' prayer)
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....I'm finding the replacement tooth rather thilly,,a little plastic thingy for 400 buck$,,,,so I'm getting over my vanity one day at a time,,,,learning to be happy without my front tooth in all but the most public settings
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...gawd,,,please don't let me -ever- forget why I came here in the first place!!(my 'senility' prayer)
