We want to look our past in the face, see it for what it really was, and release it so we can live today.
Basic Text, p. 29
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Many of us had trouble identifying our resentments when we were new in recovery. There we sat with our Fourth Step in front of us, thinking and thinking, finally deciding that we just didnt have any resentments. Perhaps we talked ourselves into believing that we werent so sick after all.
Such unwitting denial of our resentments stems from the conditioning of our addiction. Most of our feelings were buried, and buried deep. After some time in recovery, a new sense of understanding develops. Our most deeply buried feelings begin to surface, and those resentments we thought we didnt have suddenly emerge.
As we examine these resentments, we may feel tempted to hold onto some of them, especially if we think they are justified. But what we need to remember is that justified resentments are just as burdensome as any other resentment.
As our awareness of our liabilities grows, so does our responsibility to let go. We no longer need to hang on to our resentments. We want to rid ourselves of whats undesirable and set ourselves free to recover.
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Just for today: When I discover a resentment, Ill see it for what it is and let it go.
In addiction we may have had resentments and were in total denial that they were there . Our feeling were hidden deep in our addiction , we had built an wall that could not be penetrated around them.When they did surface we wanted to hold on to them , but we should not although some may be justified ,they may become a burden. We don't need to really hang onto any resentments , the longer we do , it is not good , we want to set ourselves free of what is undesirable and be free to recover.
