Narcotics Anonymous

Welcome to the Miracles In Progress Group of Narcotics Anonymous! This is not an official NA site, nor is it endorsed by the NA World Service Office.

Members Login
Username 
 
Password 
    Remember Me  
NA Message Board -> Narcotics Anonymous Message Board -> Relapsed
Post Info TOPIC: Relapsed
LWin


Member

Status: Offline
Posts: 5
Date:
Relapsed
Permalink  

Yesterday I would have been out of rehab for a week and I already relapsed. I informed my hubby and though disappointed he was glad I at least was honest. I gave him my meds to take as I really don't trust myself as much as I hate to admit it.

But even worse is the depression that has been worsening each day since returning home that I can't seem to shake. Today I'm at a new low in my sobriety, with no available meetings, or any idea as to what to do to turn this around before the depression gets even worse and leads to me going back to what I was doing and never looking back. I feel like I'm missing something but can't figure out what exactly I'm doing wrong.

Any advice?



__________________
-Laura
mikah


Senior Member

Status: Offline
Posts: 376
Date:
Permalink  

.

...I assume you mean you took doctor meds beyond what's prescribed,,, you 'came back' here,,,so you're doing what you can to keep honest,open,willing!

......it's a big challenge to get clean,,stay clean on your own ...have you tried the south Dakota helpline #?

....maybe contact the rehab?--I'm surprised they don't have an 'aftercare' program---it would seem important to have resources in place by the time you're leaving there,,,,did they make such a suggestion?...if not,maybe it's something for you to suggest to them!

..I can send you good wishes and prayers,,,but the next step is yours!.......all the best!!!

__________________
...gawd,,,please don't let me -ever- forget why I came here in the first place!!(my 'senility' prayer)
LizC


Senior Member

Status: Offline
Posts: 496
Date:
Permalink  

I hear ya with the depression. Throughout my experience every time I get clean my depression worsens. I don't have insurance or money to see a shrink so I understand that.. I also can not seem to shake it but I keep tuggin along everyday doing what I gotta do to stay clean for that minute. Do you have a big book or other material? I suggest you start reading if there are no meetings or anything at this time.

__________________

"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent." 

Dave R


Guru

Status: Offline
Posts: 4106
Date:
Permalink  

Got to meetings. If there's no NA in your area, go to AA.
We can't reocver by ourselves.

__________________
mikah


Senior Member

Status: Offline
Posts: 376
Date:
Permalink  

.
......LWin...I hope you're doing allright today,,,that you've found some relief!...I hope you've found someone close to help you in recovery............there's been a lot of good advice given on these pages...perhaps anytime you're feeling overwhelmed you can go through it,,,write some key things down that help you........and most importantly FOLLOW some of it!!---there are addicts -waiting- hoping to have you reach out!
................I'll bet you chose that name because you -know- you're going to WIN this battle!!.......one day,,,one minute at a time ...........remember you only have to stay clean for -today-,,,don't overwhelm yourself!

...in this program,,,we eventually learn to pray to a higher power of our own understanding--a -tough- concept for many of us to start with,,,we ALL had to take a first step of surrender,,,faith,,trust.........it's never to soon to start!......eventually we start to see the power of prayer....that our wishes and hopes get answered usually MUCH better than we hoped!.........a simple step could be to step outside,,,breath deep,,look at a tree,,,,and say....''help me get,,stay clean today''



....keep coming back .............let us know how you're doing!



-- Edited by mikah on Saturday 12th of April 2014 10:41:33 AM

__________________
...gawd,,,please don't let me -ever- forget why I came here in the first place!!(my 'senility' prayer)
cdbuckberry


Guru

Status: Offline
Posts: 1472
Date:
Permalink  

LWin , Just keep trying it is not easy . You prove you want recovery by coming right back and admitting relapsed and need to try again.It is real hard to do that . Addiction shows no east way out , we are here to help you whatever way we can . KEEP COMING BACK

__________________
H.O.W.
Page 1 of 1  sorted by
 
Quick Reply

Please log in to post quick replies.
NA Message Board -> Narcotics Anonymous Message Board -> Relapsed
Tweet this page Post to Digg Post to Del.icio.us