Hey y'all. I just wanted to ask for some prayers. I'm having surgery today and I'm very scared, nervous, anxious about being put under. I've never been put to sleep on purpose and while clean. What if I don't wake up? What if I bleed out? I hate needles and I hate having an IV. I'm a big weiney when it comes to pain. What if I take to many pain meds after? I can't tell them to not give me any because like I said me and pain do not get along well. I called my dad this morning crying because the thought that I would never hear his voice again kept running through my head. when I got clean this time around my awareness of how scared I am of everything is way more noticeable to me and I don't know how to deal with it. So please just keep me in your thoughts today and the next couple days because I am so scared.
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"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent."
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through God.
If you must take pain meds,then follow how they are prescribed, find the peace and relinquish the Fear through the God of your understanding.WE remember we uncover to recover and as the dullness that our addiction has placed on our lives comes alive through daily recovery WE learn to face our fears(sometime disguised as False Evidence Appearing Real) and do the Work ,guided by God daily.In thought and prayer. Let us know how everything goes..Stay in the day.....:)
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
......ahh,Liz sounds like a pretty -full-on- day you're having,,,one of the bigger for 'life-on-life's terms'!
... for me,,,the medical profession is not the 'higher power' that I prefer to give my will & life to,,,but I've certainly seen that keeping my personal HP in the front of my mind at these times can be very helpful indeed!
....I hope that you have or will make it to a meeting to share & get support locally,,,support might come in much more concrete ways that the good thoughts I'll send your way!
.........try to let fear subside--picture how much better things will be after a successful surgery!!
.............may your personal goddess of compassion be -with- you!!!
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...gawd,,,please don't let me -ever- forget why I came here in the first place!!(my 'senility' prayer)
I hope all goes well. I've been under once since I was clean and it was fine. Just hang in there, talk to your sponsor, follow the doctor's orders, have faith your higher power.
Lizx i've had several surgerys over the past 5 years I always get afraid and think maybe i wont wake up, what better way to go I always so, no suffering no pain, just heaven :)
Best of luck hope everything goes fine, if not, seeyuh on the other side hehehe
I'm praying for you Liz , any surgery is scarey . I have had heart surgery twice , bypasses. Pray to the Higher Power and God when they come to give you the sleepy shot before surgery . Good luck .
