I wish all a blessed day in recovery, remember this is truly your most important thing you will do this day, stay clean , reach out in prayer and meditation to a higher power and admit your weakness, find power and strength to get past the demon of addiction and be saved this day, one day at a time . I have many mental twists that can really mess up my day, i go into prayer to be restored, i may only get an hour but I find relief in prayer and thanks for my blessings. 7-1/2 years now, day in day out, twisted mind and thoughts yet I have come far and be it not on my own but in counsel with God. I have obsession, compulsions, many fears but they pass, I try not to stay in them.
So be vigilant, you will tire, stop and power up with prayer :) I am not a religious man, I seek Gods will and power in my life, I hate religion, love Jesus, Amen.
I was watching a movie today about an alcoholic, it was so awesome to see how well the actor played the role, the days of despair, the black outs, the pouring of booze down the sink making resolution never to drink again, and it just so happens he does just that with the help of sponsor, 12 steps, higher power but at 1 point, family intervention, loss of job, loss of his mind you could see he still wasnt going to let it go and surrender.
But then it happened he saw the hopelessness of his condition, thats the part that really got me to tears and it made me greatful that I FINALLY hit that point, alive not dead, open, honest willing, the first 3 steps, I feel blessed each day no matter what I am truly blessed.
