It has been one of those days. I have been thinking of wrongs done to me in the past, and for some reason it is really getting to me.
I thought I had left the grudges behind, I am happy in my recovery. I think maybe I am just tired of reminders of where I was in the past. I thought I
could live with minor irritations but I guess not. I know I need a meeting, as I am thinking silly things lately. It is just I have no one to really talk to, I have lost touch with my sponsor, as she has had personal issues in her life.
Just for today.......I do remember how it was, and I know how it is....I like how it is, not was, so that keeps me from going backwards!
We all have those kind of day's Angee, get that old bad thinking out of your head. Get out to a meeting raise hand and share you may feel better after it, at least talk to other female addicts.
It's good to be able to share what's going on.
Hopefully, you will get to a meeting and reconnect with your sponsor or find a new one.
Keep coming back.
I going through it too, i stay focused on prayer and asking God to help me lose this resentment, but i look at the why of it, why am i hanging on? it's poison to me , but i miss my friend, thats the bottom line, i must let go of that and make new friends :)
. ...there's a meditation I learnt that can help with past sad reminiscences,,,
....I picture the subject of my remorse,,, ....send a greeting,,,. ....give gratitude for the connection,, ....apologize for my actions,,, ....ask for forgiveness,,, ,,,,send my love!!
...not the same as direct amends,,but a good way to 'sweep the path' of peaceful memories.
....may our hearts open to a brave new world this ....... HAPPY VALENTINE's
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...gawd,,,please don't let me -ever- forget why I came here in the first place!!(my 'senility' prayer)
Thankyou sll for the positive feedback..... All is well in my recovery, I just erased the irritants from my life that like to remind me of past , and who are poison to my recovery. Have a blessed day all.
