Actually theres 12 steps but there not all simple, the simple plan of action was asked of me from my higher power, spoken to me loudly after having a few years clean but pretty much just dry.
Having not have worked the program once again and having just relapsed after 5 years clean and not working the program, I was at another point of obsession with using, I knew what was next, another relapse, I reeeeeally didn't want another relapse, I saw the circle jerk i was in, over and over again, same results same pattern, jumping off points, unable to stay clean unable to continue using, everything fell together I saw the hopeless dilemma of my life and at that moment I sought out God and he came to me in a loud resounding voice, yes he spoke to me.
"HEY STUPID" he said, I looked up to the heavens and said, " Yes sir how can I help you", God spoke to me again asking " DO YOU THINK YOU CAN DO 5 SIMPLE THINGS I ASK IN ORDER TO STAY CLEAN? ", my reply was yes, of course.
GOD SPOKE AGAIN TO ME "OK SO HERES THE PLAN, #1 GET A SPONSOR #2 WORK THE STEPS, #3 GO TO MEETINGS DAILY, #4 GET INTO SERVICE, #5 TRUST ME THIS WILL WORK, TRUST THE PROCESS AND HAVE FAITH .....
And do i did, only because i was hopeless and wanted badly to stay clean, since then i have had many things occur that i would have normally relapsed over, my relationship with God is better, my life is much better , my recovery continues daily and I grow a little each day, life is bearable, people places things aren't so difficult, I am maturing still at 52 years old, i'm BETTER now i'm not well and never will be but i'm better...
... I see many similarities in our stories,,,,'cept when I hear gawd's voice,,I just look across the room at the goldfish bowl,,,and gawrd's right there,,always facing directly at me while speaking!!.....
...when I came back a few months ago,,I haven't yet had any substantial clean-streaks yet in ~7 years of 'recovery',,,but had been 'around the rooms' enough to hear the phrase...''...NEVER has someone failed who's -thoroughly- worked the program''!!!.....in the past ,,I've always worked-in a bit of 'my' program ,,and carried some 'reservations' that have held me back,,,but just for today,,I will thoroughly follow the NA program!
...-surrender- is soooo much easier!!!
-- Edited by mikah on Saturday 8th of February 2014 01:13:56 PM
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...gawd,,,please don't let me -ever- forget why I came here in the first place!!(my 'senility' prayer)