If [character defects] contributed to our health and happiness, we would not have come to such a state of desperation.
Basic Text, p. 35
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Getting started on the Sixth and Seventh Steps isnt always easy. We may feel as though we have so much wrong with us that we are totally defective. We might feel like hiding under a rock. Under no circumstance would we want our fellow addicts to know about our inadequacies.
We will probably go through a time of examining everything we say and do in order to identify our character defects and make sure we suppress them. We may look back at one particular day, cringing at what were certain is the most embarrassing thing weve ever said. We become determined to be rid of these horrible traits at all costs.
But nowhere in the Sixth or Seventh Steps does it say we can learn to control our defects of character. In fact, the more attention we focus on them, the more firmly entrenched they will become in our lives. It takes humility to recognize that we cant control our defects any more than we can control our addiction. We cant remove our own defects; we can only ask a loving God to remove them.
Letting go of something painful can be as difficult as letting go of something pleasant. But lets face itholding on is a lot of work. When we really think about what were holding onto, the effort just isnt worthwhile. Its time to let go of our character defects and ask God to remove them.
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Just for today: Im ready to have my defects removed. I will let go and allow a loving Higher Power to care for me.
It never ceases to amaze me just how well written this program is and the order that it comes in. The steps are in order for a reason. I cannot imagine working steps 6&7 without knowing that I an addict, not knowing that I am so sick and that my mind is diseased to the point that I cannot rely on and trust in my judgement or my ability to handle situations gracefully or healthy and then doing away with the God of our own mis-understanding and trading it in for a H.P. that is loving, caring and greater than myself and to come to trust in that Power. In my diseased way of thinking.....I blame everyone else for the problems that I have created never thinking that I could be doing anything wrong or that I didn't know better than anyone else. It is that way of thinking that kept me sick for so long. I have to be able to come to a point of being honest and taking an honest assessment of myself and my behavior to see what is working and what is not working and to have come to believe that the Steps are the solution to any problem that I might have or come across thru the help of my H.P. Those first few steps helps to build that solid foundation that I can fall back on when I am introduced to myself, and know that all will be well.
I have been struggling for quite a while with addition to pain killers. I am looking for some help, someone that wants to listen and provide any guidance. Please reply. Thank you.
Hi Joan,
I hear your cry for help. May I make a suggestion?
Your first post is at the bottom of a week old post.
If you start a new thread and introduce yourself, it will be seen by more people.
There are other members here from your part of the world.
It would be great if you and they could connect.
In the meantime, are you going to NA meetings?
The power of one addict helping another is without parallel.
I hope for your sake that there are meetings near to where you live. Check out NA.org for lists and phone numbers
There are no online NA meetings here at MIP so disregard any notice you may see for one.
Let us know how you are doing. We will do whatever we can to assist you on your journey to recovery.