Humility is a result of getting honest with ourselves.
Basic Text, p. 36
=
Humility was an idea so foreign to most of us that we ignored it as long as we could. When we first saw the word humbly ahead in Step Seven, we may have figured it meant we had quite a bit of humiliation in store. Perhaps we chose to look it up in the dictionary, only to become even more confused by the definition. We didnt understand how lowliness and subservience applied to recovery.
To be humble does not mean we are the lowest form of life. On the contrary, becoming humble means we attain a realistic view of ourselves and where we fit in the world. We grow into a state of awareness founded on our acceptance of all aspects of ourselves. We neither deny our good qualities nor overemphasize our defects. We honestly accept who we are.
No one of us will ever attain a state of perfect humility. But we can certainly strive to honestly admit our faults, accept our assets, and rely on our Higher Power as a source of strength. Humility doesnt mean we have to crawl lifes path on our hands and knees; it just means we must admit we cannot recover on our own. We need each other and, above all, we need the power of a loving God.
=
Just for today: To be humble, I will honestly accept all facets of myself, seeing my true place in the world. For the strength I need to fill that place, I will rely on the God of my understanding.
A couple days ago I realized that I carry a seed of resentment in my heart and it plays a fundamental role in my life as an addict.
For the most part, humility doesn't escape me and I have an immense gratitude for the infinite prayers I receive in times of need.
I was taken aback at how instantaneously, unresolved feelings changed my behaviour. Now that I'm aware, I'm working on the why and ultimately a resolution.
I'm excited to see how this self awareness will create positive growth in my recovery.
In fact all the messages for the past couple weeks since my last visit have been pertinent in my day to day activities...
especially a nonsensical argument with my HP over Free Will... I don't want any when it comes to my addiction, it would just be so much easier but then that's not life on life's terms.
kd
__________________
"The Greatest Possession We Have is The 24 Hours Ahead Of Us"
