We may fear that being in touch with our feelings will trigger an overwhelming chain reaction of pain and panic.
Basic Text, p. 30
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A common complaint about the Fourth Step is that it makes us painfully conscious of our defects of character. We may be tempted to falter in our program of recovery. Through surrender and acceptance, we can find the resources we need to keep working the steps.
Its not the awareness of our defects that causes the most agonyits the defects themselves. When we were using, all we felt was the drugs; we could ignore the suffering our defects were causing us. Now that the drugs are gone, we feel that pain. Refusing to acknowledge the source of our anguish doesnt make it go away; denial protects the pain and makes it stronger. The Twelve Steps help us deal with the misery caused by our defects by dealing directly with the defects themselves.
If we hurt from the pain of our defects, we can remind ourselves of the nightmare of addiction, a nightmare from which weve now awakened. We can recall the hope for release the Second Step gave us. We can again turn our will and our lives over, through the Third Step, to the care of the God of our understanding. Our Higher Power cares for us by giving us the help we need to work the rest of the Twelve Steps. We dont have to fear our feelings. Just for today, we can continue in our recovery.
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Just for today: I wont be afraid of my feelings. With the help of my Higher Power, Ill continue in my recovery.
We all have some sort of defect of character , if not I don't think were human. No one is perfect .Doing the Fourth Step we are bring out old misery and bad doings .Now that we are awakening from our night mares of addiction , and using the Higher Power , we will continue in our recovery .
