Hello and blessings of this day!

I wanted to share this with my support group here at MIP(I seek my Higher Powers will and knowledge daily to the best of my effort) .Today is my 47 year old daughters birthday.Michelle and her brother Michael(46) from my 1st of 3 marriages and divorces .Both live in Tejas,,Katy and Houston respectively and we are located in Florida now so FTF is not common.........Along time ago during my 1st 9th Step work I had made my amends with my 1st wife(tried with her husband) and both of my children even though we were worlds apart and we resumed our communication thru  email,holiday greetings ,phone calls etc.I had asked for forgiveness for our first 12 years together before they moved out of state and to my surprise they both had said that they knew I was sick and I did the best I could at that period and they loved me and felt their childhood was okay...Yes I cried and felt God's presence as I continued to do the WORK...I am always seeking to continue my WORK applying our spiritual principles in all areas and cleaning up my past to the best of my ability and living in the day...

That being said,,Bout 5 months ago I had my son fly over from Tejas,to meet his brother and sister and my wife from my third marriage and to spend some time renewing our relationship the best we could,,,,It was a blessed and joyous reunion. When speaking with my son Michael,I asked how Chelle was doing(they weren't really getting along)and she is Alcoholic, in big denial and he told me she was reclusing and getting worse.I thought I could see to raise some$$ to fly her over(she is married with 2 children,2 of my 6 grandchildren and 1 great grandchild)and spend some time with her and try to get to know each other....Michael told me reluctantly,that she was holding much resentment for me and questioning why he would go to Florida when" dad was never around" and now all of a sudden ,he wants back into our lives,and etc.....All valid points but  I know that resentments are deadly and as one who suffers from addiction a real weight to deal with as WE all can identify  I know that I cannot and would not want to now control how anyone else feels but I can let you know I accept your feelings and pray that our amends can be solidified if that is God's will.........  So today my continued 9TH step journey calling and not getting an answer and knowing that I can only become willing(my constant 8th step work in all things)and continue on the principles of my true Humility,being responsible for any harm I may have caused and for doing the best to make it right..To continue to reach out in love as I have been practicing with God's grace and mercy for quite some time in recovery and acceptance of WHATEVER reactions that may come about from those I have harmed.I continue to make amends to the best of my ability,,continue to pray that God will allow and guide me when the time is right and that I have relinquished guilt and remorse along time ago and feel my Higher Powers guidance to keep moving forward, for I know that God shows things in miraculous ways and with faith and continued work every day of LIFE gives me another opportunity to keep applying spiritual principles in all areas of my life and leaving the results to my HP!!

Thanks for allowing me to take part in my own recovery and share whats going in my journey today,,,and Just For Today I am where I am supposed to be and with prayer and guidance I have faith More will definitely be  revealed...