We learn to become flexible... As new things are revealed, we feel renewed.
Basic Text, p. 102
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Flexibility was not a part of the vocabulary we used in our using days. Wed become obsessed with the raw pleasure of our drugs and hardened to all the softer, subtler, more infinitely varied pleasures of the world around us. Our disease had turned life itself into a constant threat of jails, institutions, and death, a threat against which we hardened ourselves all the more. In the end we became brittle. With the merest breath of lifes wind we crumbled at last, broken, defeated, with no choice but to surrender.
But the beautiful irony of recovery is that, in our surrender, we found the flexibility we had lost in our addiction, the very lack of which had defeated us. We regained the ability to bend in lifes breeze without breaking. When the wind blew, we felt its loving caress against our skin, where once we would have hardened ourselves as if against the onrush of a storm.
The winds of life blow new airs our way each moment, and with them new fragrances, new pleasures, varied, subtly different. As we bend with lifes wind, we feel and hear and touch and smell and taste all it has to offer us. And as new winds blow, we feel renewed.
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Just for today: Higher Power, help me bend with lifes wind and glory in its passing. Free me from rigidity.
The first gift NA gave me was freedom from active addiction.
The second is that it opened me up to the world of spirituality.
Seeing the beauty around me is no longer "uncool", or naive.
The world is only real because of our perception.
I choose to perceive beauty.
