Our disease always resurfaced or continued to progress until, in desperation, we sought help from each other in Narcotics Anonymous.
Basic Text, p. 13
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When we think of being desperate, we envision an undesirable state: a poor, bedraggled soul frantically clawing at something sorely needed, a desperate look in the eyes. We think of hunted animals, hungry children, and of ourselves before we found NA.
Yet it was the desperation we felt before coming to NA that compelled us to accept the First Step. We were fresh out of ideas, and so became open to new ones. Our insanity had finally risen higher than our wall of denial, forcing us to get honest about our disease. Our best efforts at control had only worn us out; hence, we became willing to surrender. We had received the gift of desperation and, as a result, were able to accept the spiritual principles that make it possible for us to recover.
Desperation is what finally drives many of us to ask for help. Once weve reached this state, we can turn around and start anew. Just as the desperate, hunted animal seeks a safe haven, so do we: in Narcotics Anonymous.
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Just for today: The gift of desperation has helped me become honest, open-minded, and willing. I am grateful for this gift because it has made my recovery possible.
Indeed it's one of my life's greatest paradoxes, how utter hopeless desolute desperation brought me the gift of Recovery. Embracing and facing my Desperation allowed me to Surrender and open the door to Living, the NA Way.
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Work the Steps or Die MF. (My Friend :) Clean One Day At a Time by The Grace of God through The Power of NA
I never thought anything or any program would work for me . I was told to try NA , but give it a chance .I went ,stayed , became willing to listen to what was being said . Met some great guy's who mentored me through that first year . I became Honest , Open-Minded , Willing ,to change . It has worked so far ,I'm working on my 9th year clean.Thank You NA and all that helped me .
