I changed my clean date. My lust took over and I was led away by my desires. I am on my way to a meeting but I feel like I was shot. I know that things will get better but I am in so much pain that it sometimes hard to express what I am feeling. I listen to what others are saying, I just show up, I dont use and tell someone how I feel. Today it seem that its all I can do.
Welcome to MIP,,,I am an addict named Mike....WE remember what our literature talks of" After WE have had some involvement in our fellowship, a relapse may be the jarring experience that brings about a more rigorous application of the program" Relapse(though never good) is not the shame ,the shame is not making it back..WE are addicts ,we use until we make that emotional acceptance of utter defeat and do whatever it takes to remain clean ,a day at a time...Don't beat yourself up, get back into the solution. WE listen for that sponsor and find that support group that can help us WORK through the STEPS and put the application in all areas of our lives. It is always a good suggestion to look back and see what you are going to do different this time...In support and prayer...Let us know how your doing...Great beginning getting back to a meeting, remaining humble an seeking help .Just For Today WE don't use and we seek that better way to live ...Hope to here more from you.....
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
Welcome Back! Hitting a face to face Meeting definitely the way to go. Now hit 90 Meetings in 90 days to help establish and keep the Clean habit and get the support you need!
Keep Coming Back (in fact don't go away. ) NA Works if You Work it.
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Work the Steps or Die MF. (My Friend :) Clean One Day At a Time by The Grace of God through The Power of NA
Welcome to MIP. Relapse is a part of the story for many of us. It is for me. So, no shame. The fact that an addict uses is not a surprise. The addict who is not using is the miracle. So keep going to meetings and follow the program of recovery laid out for us in NA. Thanks for sharing and y'all keep coming back.
hi my name is Raman and Im an addict, clean and serene in NA, just for today !
After six relapses, I realized my powerlessness over addiction. And then the Miracle of Recovery began. I thank God Im still recovering, not only from the smack, alcohol, lsd, rass, tabs etc, but also the addictive logic, addict thinking and addict behaviour !
This day, Im still understandin that reservations rob me of the benefits that this wonderful 12 Step Program has to offer. Most importantly, Ive understood that relapse is a result of those reservations !
Meeting makers make it and we cant save face and ass at the same time. I pray that your recovery will come first this time !
Please say with me if you will
"Take my will and my life, Guide me in my recovery, Show me how to live"
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
Trevor,I'm sorry to hear of your relapse.What your doing going to meetings is grabbing that addiction by the butt.Just going and starting over show's your willpower to change .We are all that one minute from a relapse no matter how much clean time we have .It show's strength starting over.Keep Coming Back we are here to help each other.
I am victim of my own weaknesses. But can't wallow in it. Just sharing my experiences.
I'm not an every day user. But an addict no less. Relapsed again today and by the grace of God I was able to make it out with my possessions, alive. Still praying that the room i put in my name won't be damaged, but that's the price of addiction and trying to do things on my own, my way, without NA support.
Hindsight wishing I called my sponsor. A sponsor can't be a sponsor if I never pick up the phone and call. The drugs are lies and the people involved, the users and the dealers don't mean me no good. They lie and when the money and drug are gone, and they get what they want, I'm treated like a bitch because they know I have things to lose. I am the one that keeps forgetting how much.
So now I went the extra mile and informed my girlfriend because the lies have to stop. And by the grace of God, she's standing by my side, but a part of me wished that she let me leave so I don't have to drag her down. God really looked out for me today when I clearly have failed.
Great things are coming for me...closer to the path I'm supposed to be on the help other people. Being fighting NA instead of fighting for NA. No more. 90 meetings in 90 days is needed. Day one starts tomorrow.
There is no hopefully for me. Not even going that far. Only can worry about today...and today, I'm grateful. Broke, pissed, but grateful to God for another chance. I just wish I remembered all this BEFORE I USED!!
This thing is REAL!! Biggest challenge of my life. Everyone says I'm not ready to quit yet. Sounds like motivation to me. But I cannot do things my way. I have to attend meetings, buy in to the concepts and practices of NA and keep myself busy and accountable, and most importantly...DO NOT USE!!
Thank you to all the responsed. I feel so much better. Today is 22 days clean. Meeting, meeting, meetings. I cant believe how much better I feel after not using. It seems the simple things is really the hardest to get. THANK YOU ALL. (Yes I am shouting my thank you) for all the support. I felt like life was over once i picked up. Seth I read what you have to say and all I know is "IT GETS BETTER, Love all you". Thank you all so much. THANK YOU, MIKEF, MIKE M, AVID, DAVE R, RAMAN, CDBUCKBERRY, SETH,
ALRIGHT!!!!!!! You can show your gratititude in many ways. Service to the fellowship, and sharing your ESH at meetings and here at MIP. Looking forward to hearing more from you.
