I am a recovering Crackhead, Weedhead, two time crystal meth user and two time heroin user who hasn't used in over 6 years but who lives with my fiance who i have known for over 10 years and originally met in recovery. She has put herself and myself through a lot for over a year continually relapsing on crystal meth and as a result going in and out of jail. I struggle through the good times and bad to keep my sanity and try to make the right decisions for the both of us through this whirlwind. Leaving her side is not an option to do for someone who helped me from killing other peope in the past and most likely eventually myself. But I struggle to make the right decisions. I am left used and abused verbally, financially, and (laugh if you want), even physically once after some of the stuff has happened but always love her deep down and dont want to leave her to the pack of wolves she is so familiar with even though it is what she has delt with over the years.
I admire your loyalty to a loved one. There is an organization just for people in your situation. It's called Nar-Anon...a 12 step program for friends and family of addicts. Al-anon is another option. It is for friends and families of alcoholics but these days there are as many addict family members as not. You are always welcome here to share or ask, but I sincerely believe that your needs will be best served by attending meetings for al anon and/or nar anon. Best of luck to you both.
-- Edited by avid on Sunday 17th of March 2013 09:09:42 AM
welcome Ross.. this is when the most honest inventory of your recovery will set you free....
Relations with using people are at best troublesome, and when its an intimate relationship, it is hell. I always opt out, no matter how tempting it maybe to hang on and hope for the best !
The best way to love them is to let go with love and understanding and let God take care !
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
Why is letting her go not an option? We can't stop anyone else from using drugs. If you don't let her go, she'll take you back out there with her. You might think about checking out some Nar-Anon or Al-Anon meetings to deal with this issue. Peace.
after some of the stuff has happened but always love her deep down and dont want to leave her to the pack of wolves she is so familiar with even though it is what she has delt with over the years.
