just got back from houston on friday as i stayed one night at hotel to pass out as the drive was a last minute choice the ppl i was with are the real kinda con artist they have ppl visit that they meet online i barely made it home a friend had to rent a room for me that i actually met on this site in 05 as i was falling asleep at the whell i am having to go to food banks to make it thru the motnh thank god I am nnot too proud to ask for help its been a confusing month thus far yet i am still trucking on wipe my ass off and back in the saddle the good thing from all this tho is i am forcing myself to get out more around ppl by myself it feels good being able to do so
anyway thought i would check in and at least i found the courage to go so far away from home
Never made it to the beach too many fears on whats in the water hell i dont even get in the lake anymore i have to see the bottom of the pool to my feet i dint used to have these fears andd restrictions things have been tough since Kelli a did his shit on here I am very glad that is done and over with!
So there are parts of the trip that was pleasant and over coming some fears and continueing to do so by making myself get out spring is here so its time to come outta my shell and live once again!
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Thanks for lettin us know whats cookin.Sounds like quite the adventure.!!..Yeah Im also not much on not being able to see my feet in the water.Even though I spent 4 years in the Navy,swimming off the ship,with armed guards watching while we swam I only go in the ocean here in Florida up to my neck and don;t hang out long.That was also 1965 before JAWS!!!! Good hearing from,stay blessed and check in when you can as always in support and prayer!!!
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Always great to hear from you Manon. So it sounds like this trip was full of lessons. Amazing how life will teach us things when we least expect it. So glad your safe and finding the help and support you need.
