...we have found a loving, personal God to whom we can turn.
Basic Text, p. 27
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Some of us come into recovery with the impression that lifes hardships are a series of cosmic tests designed to teach us something. This belief is readily apparent when something traumatic happens and we wail, My Higher Power is testing me! Were convinced that its a test of our recovery when someone offers us drugs, or a test of our character when faced with a situation where we could do something unprincipled without getting caught. We may even think its a test of our faith when were in great pain over a tragedy in our lives.
But a loving Higher Power doesnt test our recovery, our character, or our faith. Life just happens, and sometimes it hurts. Many of us have lost love through no fault of our own. Some of us have lost all of our material wealth. A few of us have even grieved the loss of our own children. Life can be terribly painful at times, but the pain is not inflicted on us by our Higher Power. Rather, that Power is constantly by our sides, ready to carry us if we cant walk by ourselves. There is no harm that life can do us that the God of our understanding cant heal.
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Just for today: I will have faith that my Higher Powers will for me is good, and that I am loved. I will seek my Higher Powers help in times of need.
It's hard sometimes to remember that my HP is loving and caring and wishes me no harm. During times of trial it's easy to feel abandoned by Him. But in my heart I know it's not true. God does not test me. Life will, but God is my refuge. Always there to comfort and where I can abide in peace.
