I hadn't done any drugs in almost a year, now I've been hanging out with some people that still so them and I've started again. Every time I have a few drinks, I have the urge to use. I am tired. I do not want to use anymore, and I need to talk to people that are not using. I can't tell anyone what I've been going through because it would cause conflicts and all the trust that I built up with my family and closest friends will be gone again. I found this site because I know I need some type of support. I do not want to ruin my life and lose people I love, nor my jobs. I hope this site and chatting with people will help me
No judgement up in here,just one addict reaching out to another in a loving and caring manner..And these thoughts"ALCOHOL IS A DRUG'! As long as you have the 'desire" to stop using each God given day affords you another opportunity to remain free of addiction. WE have found that its not only putting the substance down(the beginning of the healing)but the continued daily work is what keeps us clean Just For Today.WE always suggest making a meeting,listening to learn,getting the most from our program by listening for a sponsor and working in the Solution,The Steps with application in all areas of your life.There are many different roads to recovery and only you can make the choice to get clean,find a way to learn to live,once you are, and move forward in your life...People,places and things are important areas to be thoughtful of but once we work our process , and somewhere along the line, we lose the desire to use(the real miracle) those situations will no longer affect us(as long as we remain in a fit spiritual condition.If we are somewhere or with someone for "valid" reasons.. (for example I am a drummer in a band that plays bars and areas really not condusive to addicts but I work to ensure I remain focused daily)I do believe though whenever possible to live in the "free" zone,with people who are not using and have found another way of life....I still have contact with people that use but I am responsible for my own recovery and work with support and God's(of my own understandings guidance)grace and will to the best of my ability.I have been working my own process for quite a few cups of coffee and didnt get to this point overnite..Others will be on to share their own suggestions and thoughts on our program of Narcotics Anonymous.Here's a link you can check out to find some info about our program.. www.na.org. you can find a list of meetings and read about the program,info pamphlets and what WE are about.Again we always suggest showing up at a meeting and feel the love.May be the best step in the direction of freedom from active addiction you have come across...Let us know how you do...Peace in support and prayer.............
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
Hi Nicole and welcome. Many of us enjoy posting here and sharing our experience, strength and hope to addicts still struggling with active addiction. Our literature tells us that "alcohol is a drug" but like you, many of us have to learn this fact the hard way. I'm glad that you can see that your putting everything at riks by using again. I say at risk, but it's not really a risk is it? I mean we know without any doubt that if we start using again, even "just for fun" that we will end up strung out, and miserable. So...... there are some suggestions. Go to a meeting a day for ninety days. Ask for help get a sponsor and work the steps. And don't use no matter what. Your topic title suggests that you understand you can't hang out with people who are using. So don't. Good luck to you and let us know how you are doing.
Am I an addict? Most of us don't have to think twice about this question, we know. Our whole life was centered in using and finding ways and means to get more. We used to live and lived to use. In NA we believe we must abstain from all drugs in order to Recover. At first many viewed alcohol differently, but we can't afford to be confused about this. Alcohol is a drug. We must abstain from all drugs to begin our Journey to a better way of Life.
Are You an addict? Only You can answer that question.
For me, NA was the last house on the block. And for me NA Works, because I work it. As already mentioned it's suggested to start by attending 90 Meetings in 90 days. Clean One Day At a Time by the Grace of my Higher Power through the Power of NA for 32 years. Your chair is waiting if you choose to take it. NA promises you never have to use again if you don't want to. Before finding NA I had no choice. We suffer from the disease of Addiction from which there is no known cure, but One Day At a Time Recovery from Active Addiction is possible, and it's a wonderful Journey!
If you don't want a haircut don't go to the Barber Shop. If you don't want to get loaded don't go where people are getting loaded.
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Work the Steps or Die MF. (My Friend :) Clean One Day At a Time by The Grace of God through The Power of NA
Nicole , A real change of friends might help your recovery.There are plenty of clean new friends at NA meetings.It will work ,but don't ever let your guard down again.The drug addiction uses real powerful words to lure you back in .Take care .
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