Change is an inside job...Illusion thinking we can change anything or anyone but ourselves.

very touching John might make some ppl think clean or not we still experience times of hardship and depression and its very real and its alwas good to know we dont have to do it alone

I have to put all my disharmony, disorder, my relations and difficultys in Gods hands most of the time because I have no power over those things, those people and situations.

God gives me the ability to accept them, as they are, not begging them back, not forcing and pushing my will into everything, because, most are beyond my power.

Gods will be done, in all things, we are better off, if someone needs to leave my life, so be it, there's a reason they must go, even stay away.

This is something I have been dealing with since my ex girlfriend went and got married to some guy about 7--8 months ago, I rejected her pushed her away and 2 months later she married some guy she'd been seeing inbetween our on again off again relationship. She wanted to be married, feel wanted, I wanted freedom not to be locked down, she got what she wanted so did I, in all honesty, but I miss her and it hurts deep, but theres something I needed to learn in this, that is to be with another person even when I dont want to be at times, i'm self centered and want my space but I also need to learn to share :)

I hope you are well John