The holidays are finally over till the stupid cupid comes around!

i made it and remained clean.

last year had its moments had to face Kelli A. or doc stalker once again in a court protective order like i have it in me to lay a hand on a person whatever any way didnt fight it even prolonged it asked for the 5 years instead of the 3...I want nothing to do with that man and i hope i was clear enough in the court proceedings to get tha across..I will admit he does cross my mind but of course he would he created a shut in i fear everything cant leave my home alone unless to get meds or go to the doctor everything else is done for me.

The doctors put me on a walker to assist with mobility as being a shut in I am not just confined to the house but to my bed so my muscles are weak. I hope its short term but i do fall often and face first usually, but that is the case iwth the way i learn things too just like a todler learning how to walk legs are weak an i do stumble but i also have to get back up and face the truth of life as it still goes on outside my doors.

I will admit seeing him confused me a little bit again not knowing how to process i see shrink soon to process this matter along with everything else...I had to re read the file it was like reliving his insanity that he posted here all the way down to describing what my apt looked like and how i lived thats scary stuff i wish it would just mend itself but tha tisnt going to happen i have to take it by the reins and get over it already...its not an easy task as i havent slept well since the court date almost forgot how to sleep its 4 30 in the am i am wide awake it sux but i am clean and gratefu for it grateful for many things

the next process f what needs to be done will be hard but some one has to do it

just thought i would chck in love you guys

happy new year may it be in your favor