Hey guys becoz of past active addiction there are over a dozen employers and 14 years of unemployment in Resume.Got a new job.I am from Accounts background and the new job (great pay) has got accounts plus stores plus admin.I am zero at admin and stores never handled.I am clean 18 months.Got aging and sick parents and a unmarried elder sister.Job steadiness is crucial and I feel great when I am at work.Also I am in AA for over 8 years with over thousands meetings f2f under my belt and that too booze free but anyways My clean date is NA thats 18 months.
The new job invoves keeping an eye or supervising others job in which I am zero.How will they react.Plus I am 47 and staff are under 30 except one senior Man.Plus lots of anxieties about whether I will succed at new job or not.
Also today is 87th day nicotine free (not suggested to newcomers).My 1st job in clean time invoved travelling from Mumbai to Gujarat and I was able to attend over a dozeb visits.
Only needed and want to read steps 1.2 and 3 from Basic text everyday.I mean thats how I was successful at 1st job.
Please write some suggestions as its 7 pm in India Mumbai and job will start tomorrow at 9.30 am.I will come back to read suggestions from ALL
I understand your anxiety. Starting a new job is always a little nerve racking especially if you aren't experienced in all that's expected. Give yourself a break. Assuming you didn't falsify your qualifications, then your boss knows that you aren't experienced in supervision and is therefor prepared for you to make some mistakes. Trust your instincts. Let go and let God. If it's the right place for you to be then you will know it.
I am a Bad NA.I joined the job and when was told to keep the keys of full office I got scared and anxious and quit the job same day.Honestly speaking I am for treatment for Delusion disorder Paranoia and I take maintenence meds exactly as precribed by a qualified shrink who knows about addiction.Thanks god I didnot end up using inspite of loosing the job.My heart ,my doc and many oldtimers in AA and NA know my case so I know that I am not high as one NA member is telling everyone everywhere that I am not clean becoz I take meds.I and my doc is aware of AA pamplet-AA members and medications" and NA pamplet-In time of illness".
Forget about what other people in the fellowship think. They know nothing. It seems pretty clear that you were not ready for all this job entailed. Now you know.