HI F2BM.
Point is.. i cant share directly on you dilemma. When i first got out of rehab there was no NA.
Many addicts did AA and found much love and support.
NA was started later, carved from our pain of not finding close association and identification as addicts.

Then NA grew and we have about 15 meetings a week.
We the addicts had a clear cut policy;
God help us change the things we cant stand...and stand the things we cant change..
So, with heads full of resentment and pots full of coffee, we started NA meetings.
First one then many and now 9 groups following the 12 Step Tradition of Narcotics Anonymous....

Now that having been said, Id suggest you find a sponsor and get things sorted...
Goodluck and (((((((((Great Recovery hugssss))))))))

Welcome to MIP FREE2BME.

I am an addict named Mike..First ,it sounds as if you have serious medical issues and whether you need to continue taking medication is between you and your doctor.Only you truly know when you are "using" or taking medication as prescribed, your body certainly doesnt know.I  can identify with  being in pain from debilitating medical issues  that make the quality of life diminished in the least.In Times Of Illness(Booklet)IP#17 TREATMENT BEFORE AND AFTER,Bulletin#29(replacement issues)all found on NA.ORG website always good reminder readings..I know for me, self sponsorship never worked, so my sponsor and my support group remain intergral in my recovery ,a day at a time .And yes, Just as previously stated ,no matter where we go in life ,people, situations and other things may not always sit well with us. Dealing with life without"using" is not something we may be used to especially if we have been in the grip for a long time..The God thing is trying for many and I can hear the subtle resentment in your voice of where was this God when you were being obliterated?We instill the premise of our 2nd Step into our life, that is WE come to believe,only in a Power greater than ourselves,(this is not ,unless we are choosing Dogmatic beliefs,   our God step but a place where the only requirements we need is to find that Power that is loving and caring and greater than us. Our choice is a process that most likely will develop as we go further in the "solution' the Steps worked with our sponsors and application in all areas of our lives. You have a sponsor, you are making meetings and you are sharing honestly,a really good base so far.Periodically for me,I make meetings out of town or just different nights or different areas.It helps me get out of that "oh know If this person shares about his /her dog again im gonna scream' :)  Sometimes I gotta just really go deeper inside.Our literature does tell us that no matter if we are intravenous drug abusers or people just abusing prescriptions we all eventually end up in the same place ,some just get there faster than others..Through the years I have had many thoughts on 'why do I continue showing up,sponoring people,sharing and listening to some stuff that keeps me on edge but based on the evidence I know COMPLACENCY is definitely the enemy(especially with substantial clean time)Keep sharing honestly ,I can only suggest working even harder in the 'solution: The Steps,its where we get our ammo to remain in a fit spiritual condition,that daily reprieve,keeping us away from "using" again.As long as we are not using we have a shot of recovery each day.It is a simple program for complicated people,(in my case a true hardhead)Thanks for helping me out today to remind me,to not get into that complaceny that starts with severe reduction in my spiritual behavior, leading backward  to the next mental part of my addiction and without dilligence back into the physical dilemma....Just For Today,don't use and more is always revealed.You are on the right course,call your sponsor,find that loving and caring Higher Power OF YOUR CHOICE AND YES,KEEP COMIN BACK....