needless to say i canceled the ball I was supposed to go to saturday night for several reasons but my main reason is beause that many ppl in that smal place which isn't really so small but thier are ppl i would rather not run into so I will be working instead
will I ever be comfortable arround crouds after being stalked?
Can't I have my life back?
I want the old me that would go out to dance and lsiten to music not I feel stuck inside my mind as it is bound in fear
not really ususally up at this time but i woke up as i slept waiting on calls for work
-does cartwheels- FUN! not
anyway that is what is on my mind
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
Yes,in recovery, WE have daily choices we make. As long as we don't use our opportunities for positive results are many fold. If you feel like going out to dance and listen to music that is a goal you work toward. WE find different environments and different people as we move day to day .A step at a time, I am aware of how it is for you around people and crowds and even going out. We face our anxieties and fears to the best of our abilities each day.. CAN YOU HAVE YOUR LIFE BACK! If that is your choice, Iwill pray you find the way...Good to see you,don't let not going to the ball cause you grief.move forward It is a choice you made and you are free to make others...Have a blessed and productive day!
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Hi Manon, I wish I knew the secret for getting over lingering fears. I know that I have regrets and anxiety's that can haunt me from time to time. I find that prayer helps. Also just getting up and moving. I joined a gym a few months ago and going there has done wonders for my mental health. Of course, our demons know when we are most vulnerable and for many of us that is in the middle of the night. That is when having a loving, caring higher power who I can lean on, makes all the difference.
Hey Manon :) It sucks that you have to miss out on life because of your fear. Do you pray about it? I know that for me, I know that God protects me and keeps me on His path and because of this I find courage.
Sorry...I have been gone awhile so I am a little out of the loop.
Manon, heres what the doc prescribed; if you can repeat this prayer 21 times, then even the worst fears would have left. So here it is:
God I offer myself to Thee, to build with me and to do with me as Thou will.... Relieve me of the bondage of self that I may better do Thy will. Take away my difficulties, that victory over them may bear witness to those I would help, of Thy Power, Thy Love and Thy Way of Life. May I do Thy will always !
Do it afore you think "No it wont work"...... I bet you a hug ((((Manon))))) that it will !!!!!
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
