October is here and all i can thinkof is knocking on deaths door oct 11 2009 I have yet to be the same. wondering where I went wrong in my life as there are not many happy times in my overworked mind wondering why God did let me come home knowing the pain and the agony i have felt in my life I have had to much annd feel death surround my mind once again "circles" were noticed under my eyes just like that woman I treasure in my mind the strongest of hightmans my Nanna too bad I can do math or I might get it right as it runs rapidly thru my mind wanting the world to stop spinning in my head a time for breath and relaxation and to finally stop my suffering its one thing after another I cant do this!
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
Hey Manon...........enjoy your birthday,,many of my posse never made their next one....Just don't use and each day offers Hope.When your feeling in a slump ,reach out and help someone,that is God's will for us, to love God and each other.Two of God's greatest gifts to humans,tears and laughter,WE share them together....
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
HI Manon, Yeah, I 'get it' that you are marking a grim day in your life. Checking your profile I do see that your birthday is in a few days, so this must be an especially emotional time. Y'know Manon, there is a gift I found in getting older. I really understand the term "life is too short" My past, with all it's shameful deeds is dead and buried, but I am alive. There is nothing to gain from dwelling in those dark places. I forgave and have been forgiven. It set me free beyond my wildest dreams. I live for 'right now' and every 'right now' is positive, optimistic, constructive, and kind. When I stray from those principles, I reign myself in, consult my higher power, and restore my peace of mind. Nothing else matters other me being ok with me right now. God Bless you Manon, you deserve happiness and freedom from fear. May you find both right now.
Manon stay out of morbid reflection, be greatful your here today do gods will ask for his/her direction and find something to make you happy, look foreward to something, but stay the F outta morbid reflection it wants you dead........
