Hi all,
I have posted a few times on this site, and I thought that it would be appropriate to tell you all a little of who I am. I live in Nebraska, and attend meetings in Lincoln Nebraska. Through the years I sought a lot of ways to fill "the hole in my soul" and dope seemed to fill the hole more effectively than anything else tried. When I finally got to the crisis that made me seek recovery, I did not even know that NA existed. Luckily the treatment center that I attended was very NA oriented, and through their encouragement I found NA. I have been around long enough to understand that being a drug addict actually became an advantage for me. It got me into a place where I learned tools to deal with life on life's terms, something that many "normies" have problems with. Would I change anything? Yeah, I wish I had been willing to find NA earlier in my life, but I found it when I was ready. No I did not lose every possession to the disease, only my self respect and peace of mind, things that are more important than physical things.
Life is good today as long as I can remember that I am a fallible human being, as is everyone in this world, and I shouldn't expect perfection from others when I can't deliver it to them. The whole "God" thing disturbed me when I first came into the rooms, but as I began to understand that the crap in the world is just a part of being a human, and not "God" picking on me. Today I understand that God loves me enough to trust me to deal with the world, and cares enough for me that God doesn't try to shield me from being a human.
Lon