Liz... honey look...its very simple aint it? ?? the way to make a meeting is to make it....
so like they say... get the rear end moving.....heheh.. ive been seeing your pics on fb again and really like what i see.. i care too much to see you letting fear overcome wiser counsell......
you are a winner...go for it !!!
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
i look strong. i act strong. like nothing will ever make me scared. thats a lie. im always scared. i talked to my friend the other day about somethings that were happening. she said she would put me back in treatment. i assured her i was ok because i was scared to go back to treatment which i shouldnt be, ive been there enough to not be scared. im scared to go any where new by myself. im scared to talk to my friends on the phone. see not as strong as some people think.
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"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent."
the way to get over fear of going to a meeting is by going to a meeting. But I'm sure you knew that. Just do it kiddo, what's the worst that can happen? peace.
yea Liz.. we are powerless over addiction and all its attendant evil and misery... but... the big but (sorry no pun intended, hoho) is that God gives us Power to do Good... both for ourselves and others... just ask.. then the next thing is do it.. Easy does it...but do it...
And how was the meeting anyway?
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
/ha raman i love how you assume i actually went to one. havent gone to one yet. my great grandmother passed away today so i will be sitting in my room crying for the next 2 days.
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"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent."
Sorry to hear about the loss of your great-grandmother. It's important to remember that she still exists in spirit and will be communicating with you. Open a book at random, follow the inspired leadings, she's there.
About being afraid to go to a meeting - allow yourself to feel afraid. Notice how it feels to be afraid. Just observe the sensation, don't analyze it, don't judge it. Accept it. That's an important part of recovery and it might be even more valuable than going to a meeting right now.
Whatever happens, don't use. Call someone, read the text (online or otherwise), stay clean just for today.
Pain and misery can be such welcome comforting things. Things we may be accustomed to. Wallowing in self pity so much simpler than working in the solution. When the pain of the known is worse than the fear of the unknown you'll take action. Until then your choices are your choices.
My youngest brother and my mother died of cancer the same year. I was layed off later the same year. So what shit happens to everyone, my Recovery still had to remain first. These for me were excellent reasons to go not to use as excuses to avoid meetings.
You get to choose. NA gives you this gift to choose. Use the tools and grow or go on same old same old.
Personally I (usually) love Living life in the Solution. Thanks NA.
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Work the Steps or Die MF. (My Friend :) Clean One Day At a Time by The Grace of God through The Power of NA
