hahaha....n like you say...even if i got nice new piece of tail.. tmay im too lazy fully utilize the offer/ opportunity... hehehehehe....lazy lion.....
-- Edited by Raman on Thursday 21st of June 2012 12:02:37 PM
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
So, on the premise that our disease (I picture it as golum from lord of the rings) is smarter/faster/stronger than we are... What things have you been guilty of substituting your drugs for.
As in... Character defects? Like this "I'm not using drugs anymore, but I still beat up my brother when I'm mad" that would be addictive behavior, right? If every time you got mad, you would beat someone up? Or when you feel insecure, you crawl into bed with a new piece of tail?
What (was or is) your most dominant "subdrug" character defect?
hoho..mine definately was anger oh yessss,,,, i certainly was an anger-banger...
thank God its past tense......in the sense of anger and hate not controlling my life. but honestly...its not that im never angry. i do get angry but knowing consequences, dont indulge. anger has its own agenda. it begins with getting irritated...then if it dosent stop there its me getting angry..nfinally the rage and being out of control.
after all...anger is a reaction....a denial of reality (ip. triangle of self obsession) oftentimes, i simply move away from people and situtations that im angry in. if i cant move away, try and distract myself....nlike my sponsor had said "just dont be concious that you are concious...remember...this too shall pass.
Just for today i never have to be angry again.. im glad im clean and serene... things like walking....talking....yoga...Meditation...Serenity mantra. .. any of these,,, some of these,,,,,,or all of these keep me in "Serenity-Zone"....
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
I have quite a few. I love my job and I've worked hard for my current position, but I struggle with extreme frustration, anger, stress, and the inability to accept my crappy shift when I work so, so hard and the two other guys in my department do pretty much nothing. I need acceptance, and I need to calm down. I've been trying hard to work on these things. I'm always being a perfectionist too, I'm also a bit of a bragger I think. I like to talk about the things I've earned, where I am in life, it is a good place really. I think that I'm just too proud. Hmm...
