We wanted an easy way out.... When we did seek help, we were only looking for the absence of pain.
Basic Text, p. 5
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Somethings not working. In fact, somethings been wrong for a long time, causing us pain and complicating our lives. The problem is that, at any given moment, it always appears easier to continue bearing the pain of our defects than to submit to the total upheaval involved in changing the way we live. We may long to be free of pain, but only rarely are we willing to do whats truly necessary to remove the source of pain from our lives.
Most of us didnt begin seeking recovery from addiction until we were sick and tired of being tired and sick. The same is true of the lingering character defects weve carried through our lives. Only when we cant bear our shortcomings one moment longer, only when we know that the pain of change cant be as bad as the pain were in today, are most of us willing to try something different.
Thankfully, the steps are always there, no matter what were sick and tired of. The irony is that, as soon as we make the decision to begin the Twelve Step process, we realize our fears of change were groundless. The steps offer a gentle program of change, one step at a time. No single step is so frightening that we cant work it, by itself. As we apply the steps to our lives, we experience a change that frees us.
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Just for today: No matter what prevents me from living a full, happy life, I know the program can help me change, a step at a time. I need not be afraid of the Twelve Steps.
I know I was sick and tired of being sick and tired.No life left in this addict,no money , no job ,no home almost,all because I had to have those drugs of choice.Had been to rehab's and Detox's twicw they only worked for days .I went of for 39 years using all my resources to chase the drugs of choice.I came to an end after bypass surgery,I still wanted to use,stupid or what.I was finallt told by my wifes AA sponsor to try a NA meeting.I went did the 90-90 and it took hold.It was the best thing I have ever done for myself.I now am working on 8 years clean in January,have done service for 7 years plus.THank the Higher Power for my new way of life.
I know I was sick and tired of being sick and tired.No life left in this addict,no money , no job ,no home almost,all because I had to have those drugs of choice.Had been to rehab's and Detox's twicw they only worked for days .I went of for 39 years using all my resources to chase the drugs of choice.I came to an end after bypass surgery,I still wanted to use,stupid or what.I was finallt told by my wifes AA sponsor to try a NA meeting.I went did the 90-90 and it took hold.It was the best thing I have ever done for myself.I now am working on 8 years clean in January,have done service for 7 years plus.THank the Higher Power for my new way of life.
