I thought I was a strong soul. I thought I had this shit licked. I got cocky in my recovery and relasped 3 days ago on Meth. I would had almost 3 years clean. I am hitting a meeting today, but am so disappointed in myself. I eat good, work out, have a good life. I don't want to lose all this. HELP.
Karen,Going to the meeting today and admitting of your relapse is not easy.You went in the right direction by doing that,some addicts never come back from relapses.You know how you got your clean time before,try what you did to get 3 years almost. Keep Coming Back
We are all just one drug away from a relapse, no matter how long we have been clean. This is basic truth of addiction. We stay clean by doing a few basic things: going to meetings,working the steps and traditions with a sponsor, fellowshipping with other addicts, service work to the home group and NA, and prayer and meditation. Notice that eating right, working out, and having a good life are not on this list. This are good things to do, but they are not the basic things (tools) of recovery. Glad you're getting back to a meeting. Time to pick up the pieces and get back to basics. Keep coming back.
Hi Karen, welcome back! My name's Mike, I'm a grateful Recovering addict. Addiction is a cunning and powerful monster from which there is no known Cure, but Recovery is possible. I for one do not have this disease of addiction licked. But by the Grace of a God of my understanding through the Power of NA working on 32 years of One Day at a Times Clean. The basics of HOW never change. I have and continue to Surrender, and through Surrender Win another day Clean.
Hit 90 NA Meetings in 90 days. Get back to basics. Read NA literature daily. Work the Steps with your Sponsor. Get involved in Service Work giving back what is freely given. Stay involved, it's hard to fall off the edge if you stay in the middle. Complacency is the enemy of Time.
Don't beat yourself up, the disease of addiction is POWERFUL! But NA is more powerful IF we do what we need to do. Keep Coming Back, It Works If You Work It!
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Work the Steps or Die MF. (My Friend :) Clean One Day At a Time by The Grace of God through The Power of NA
Glad that you have decided to come back. Your story sounds a lot like mine. I got 2 years off of most drugs (I say most drugs because I was drinking occasionally" during this time). I used my drug of choice right after getting a job promotion and 2 years away from it. I personally used because things were going so well, and of course, because I never got a sponsor, never used the phone, never worked the steps, and I put my recovery on the back burner altogether, and put everything else in my life first. My relapse was a jarring experience that brought about a more rigorous application of my recovery. Relapse isn't a part of everybody's story, and it sure doesn't have to be, but it was a part of mine and now, looking back, I'm glad that it happened. I need the program in my life, to keep me together. It was my relapse that really allowed me to understand and believe this. You are in the right place, keep going to meetings, keep coming back, and take the simple suggestions, they work. You can do it, it works if you work it- it is worth it, and so are you. :)
I hope Karen is doing well. Can't help but notice though that here is yet another person who comes here in desperation, makes a post asking for help and then is never heard from again. I wonder about these folks.... did they relapse or in some cases continue to use? did they not find what they were looking for here and so found a place better suited to their needs? did they just need to vent and once it got off thier chest that was all. dunno, but it is curious.
I thank you all for your kindness in responding to me. I am doing pretty good. I have been going to a lot of face to face meetings and have also got involved with the NA chat room. Again, thank you for your wise words of wisdom.
