hi all.

I was in a terrible road rage incident last Saturday.

Even after three days, I shudder to think what could have happened if it had gone further,,,,

This is one thing that I sincierly wish will never happen again in my entire life !

And to think that for 29 days Id been on a grand trip; events I played sax in, money coming in, lovely travelling partners ( including a fellow NA), seein new places and experiencing new people and feelings.

3000 self-driven miles without incident and this stupid thing happens.

Instead of stayin with that grand feeling, I got too tired and stressed and anxiety filled getting into the big city in the hottest time of day,, 1pm.

And then it happens that I got into a road rage with a drunken driver at the toll gate. Then I nearly beat him unconcious with a wood picket and he nearly damaged my eye and cut me in the forehead.

And now Im thinking how much the people pleasing addict in me got me into that bad space. I could have simply told my travellingand  companion to do what she wants and go about my routine. Instead Im doing the default thing and putting myself into anxiety.

That afternoon, in broad daylight, i saw exactly how the disease behaves when given free rein. It found another diseased person, a drunk tipper driver to fuck with. Murderous, crazy and unstoppable road rage.

Luckily the cops got there quick. The drunk driver is arrested.

Then very cunningly, i twist things when the cops want to book me for assault. They let me go with advice; next time, even if someone jumps que, dont bother with it. Just call the cops or the officers at the toll.

And yes, honestly, by od, I never want to be in that shortcoming again, ever !

So,,,,, help me God !