Hi. My problem started with ephedrine, and progressed into meth. You belong here if you want to. Its never about "I've got more dust in my eye right now than you ever used in your life". If you read the lit, all you have to do to belong here is want to stop using what ever it is your using. I was seventeen when I hit my first meeting. And All I could think of was how I was different. But its your decision on whether you think you need help or not. If you feel you need help, the rooms will be here for you.
(Alcohol is legal and its possible to be addicted to it. Ephedrine and pseudo-ephedrine are used in the process of meth. In my state there are limits to how much you can buy in a certain amount of time. Down south, there are cops who watch for people who buy too much of that stuff.)
-- Edited by Ruhig on Sunday 25th of March 2012 11:43:30 AM
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Hi all, I just have a quick question. I'm really struggling with whether or not I should be here. Everyone seems to have much worse stories than mine. At meetings I here about multiple heroin overdoses, cocaine, and crimes committed, etc., I'm just not thinking I belong with you all and I don't want to disrespect this fellowship if I shouldn't be here. Has anyone ever had a problem with ephedrine? I don't even know if it's really even a drug. It's legal too. I haven't had a problem with "hard" drugs, mostly because I've not tried them due to availability, but ephedrine seemed to be a problem for me....just wondering if anyone else found themselves here in a similar way. Thank you I really appreciate it.
Thank you for the response. I went to a meeting tonight and spoke to some people about "looking for the similarities". The fact is, there are areas in my life that were greatly affected by my use (I did also use marijuana on a regular basis - and took other drugs when available) such as my losing my marriage, tremendous financial trouble, and just existing in "survival mode". With the ephedrine, I would take literally handfuls of pills multiple times per day. My blood pressure went through the roof and I had to be put on another medication to help that. And yes in my state they only let you get a certain amount each month but the pharmacies don't talk to each other so I always knew where I stood with each pharmacy at each time. It got to the point with my tolerance that I wasn't really even getting the euphoria anymore, I was just taking them to not be completely dead tired in withdrawal. I'm sure that if I had access to other uppers I'd get hooked on them. I think it was a factor of availability that I only used ephedrine. So yeah I think I am an addict....my disease is just screaming at my brain lately with denial and looking for differences. I think I have a better perspective now. Thank you very much. I'm going to keep coming back!
"It's not what, or how much we used" It really isn't,,,It's about taking something from the outside to fix something on the inside/ You can die from abusing ephedrine
Hey hi...
Thanks fir reminding me.
Id used effies as substitutes fir dexidrine.
Pon those times we did dex and grass and jammed music and hung with the crowd all nite; real creatures of the dark.
When things got heavy, id go to this friendly pharmacy and do effies thinking it was "safe".
But know what ? By substituting one drug for another i was still being in addiction.
For an adddict like me that means my life becomes a rigmarole of getting, using and finding ways and means to get more drugs.
"the price may seem more for a junkie selling her body than an old lady stealing prescriptions, but ultimately, both pay with their lives ". (basic text)
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Welcome. Glad you're here and going to meetings. Like others have said, it doesn't matters how much we used. What matters is how the drugs affected us. We lost the ability to control our use of drugs and they made our lives unmanageable. Keep coming back!
it seems to me if you used ephedrine and could not control the use of it then you do belong to NA,, You need it just as much as the hardcore addict because you an ideal candidate for experiencing the hardcore life of an drugaddict , and if you can prevent that from happening that is a great testimony for you and also you will spare those who love you, a life a misery,
sometimes it seems with these testimoniues its needs to be more about recovery, we or I dont need to hear all those specifics of a persons life in hardcore addiction
Thank you all so much for helping me. I am grateful.
If not being in control means not being able to follow any pre-determined plan of moderation and needing to take more and more (going along with tolerance) in a shorter amount of time than expected...then yes I could not control it. I also spent more money than I knew I should, even money that I didn't have.
Again thank you. Someone told me today that even if I'm on the garbage truck, I don't have to ride it all the way to the dump.
I used drugs everyday, usually several times a day. To me, that is not control (moderation). I never could have just one glass of wine. If I had a bag of pot (which I always did) I would always be smoking it. I thought I had things under control (my life was not a total disaster), but when I got honest with myself, I realized I didn't.
