Battling eating disorders has also been a huge part of my addictive life, essentially an interchangable behaviour, using starvation in place of drugs or vice versa.
I've always known that I'm an "All or Nothing" person and thought of it as being a character flaw, more or less, seriously impeding to my sobriety at times but after dealing with yet another bout of being overwhelmed this week and considering extreme eating measures to control a miniscule portion of my crazy life I started thinking about this and believe this attribute is more fundamental than I thought.
Since I've only worked on NA by myself I've been devoid of feedback and find myself wondering if addressing these types of issues within a group or with your sponsor are a part of NA.
I feel like I know so much but understand so little about my recovery... why after 17 years is this process just as hard as it was when I first admitted that I was powerless over my addiction and that my life had become unmanageable?
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"The Greatest Possession We Have is The 24 Hours Ahead Of Us"
When I first got clean, I developed an eating disorder too, which involved binging, then starving myself, combined with exercise obsession. I was using food as my substitute drug. Just like drugs, it seemed I couldn't get enough food. I would also eat compulsively and obsess on food. Gradually, over the years, I have been able to deal with this problem by working the steps with a sponsor. For me, steps 4,5,6 and 7 helped a great deal with my food issues. I have also prayed about this problem and shared it in meetings. Today, I have a much healthier relationship to food. I try to eat healthy, well-balanced meals that nourish my body. So, yes the NA program can help you with food issues, if you use the resources that are available too you.
