Hi Sue. It's gonna be tough to get clean in that environment Maybe the answer is in-patient treatment to de-tox and get a few weeks clean Then get to NA meetings, get a sponsor, develop and use a support network, do step work, pray, and go to more meetings. Let us know how you are doing.
I understand your situation. I work around all sorts of narcotics. Some days its harder than others. I find that telling myself "They'll still be there next visit, I'll take them then" Also, meetings and a friend in the program would help the best. the book tells us to take it a day, sometimes an hour at a time. And I've heard that there is no substitute for meetings and clean friends.
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Hi Sue, I had a similar situation in my home, with me knowing my drug of choice was here, somewhere. I would tear the house apart till I found it, then lied when I got caught. I ruined my life and almost lost my marriage too. Today, it's not that way anymore. I no longer crave the drugs, although I know my husband still takes them, "as prescribed". I just worry about me. I can't tell anyone else they have a problem, I can only identify my own. I go to meetings, have a sponsor, and work the steps. Sometimes my husband's ok with it, sometimes not so much. That's his problem, not mine. I do what I have to do to stay clean and sober, and I learned that in meetings and through the 12 steps. It is such a freedom to not wake up and think "How am I gonna get high today". I will pray that you can find that in your life, just for today. Peace
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i would love to go to meetings but my husband gives me a hard time about it because he is left home alone so it's easier to just not bring it up.i have thought about doing inpatient but the drugs will still be there when i get out.i have been to about 3 IOP's in the past 4 years so i dont think i would learn anymore if i did that again.i guess the hardest part is watching him"nodd" on the couch,you talk about a MAJOR TRIGGER!my husband dosent think he has a problem because he only takes the 3 a day as perscribed.but i dont think the directions say anything about snorting one of those.there have been people telling me to leave but i'm hoping for another way.i do love him very much,i just wish he would understand why i dont just stay out of his pills.sometimes i dont understand it myself.thanks to all who responded to me.any advice is better then non.it's nice to know that there are people who understand
This is a tough situation. I think your husband can make it at home for a little while when you go to a meeting. Is he an invalid? Don't you go out to go shopping or work or whatever? There is no substitute for in-person NA meetings. If you want to get clean, you need to get out and go to meetings. You may also need to leave your husband. I don't mean to be harsh, but if you are serious about your recovery, you need to do what it takes. PS: Just because your husband takes narcotics "as prescribed" doesn't mean he doesn't have a problem. People can talk doctors into anything.
if you want to get clean then you need to get out of your own way...thats the way i see it....you keep coming up with a problem to stop yourself from taking anyones suggestions...i know this to be true because i did it for years...the only thing it did was kept me from getting clean...if you want to really get clean then get out of the way and listen to whats suggested...! GOOD LUCK TO YOU...I HOPE YOU FIND YOUR WAY.
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You take his pills because your an addict. He doesn't want you to go to meetings because (he says) he doesn't want to be home alone, but then he nods out. You have a choice...Either do what you need to to get clean or don't. It's really that simple.
Work up that desire to stop using then go for it. You want to get clean and it's waiting for you. Feels great too. If you have the desire to stop using, even if you can't quit using yet, then keep coming back.
Sue ,You're going to have to decide for yourself what approach your going to taken for recovery. You have to do it not your husband. If he loves you enough he should let you go to detox or meetings .You're best off getting some cleantime at a detox .Learning what you have to do . Having a sponsor is a great help also . You're no more today is Ok but Just For Today is better. Good luck ,keep trying it is a lifetime job getting and staying clean.
Sue, I was having the same problem. I would search the house up and down til I found what I was looking for. When I got caught I would lie and make an excuse for my acctions. I finally told myself I had to do something about this. I ordered an erbal formula called withdraw ease and havent touched a pill in seven days. I havent gone more than three days without in 2 years. I suggest trying it.
go to a meeting start sharing or as i like to say tell on myself bring this secret out into the light and findx a woman to sponsor you...that is what you should do and i cant tell you what you should do with your husbsnd but what i do know is that you find a way to get those pills so put that energy to get off them ....we go to any extent to use so we should go to any extent to recover....im here for you if you want to chat...okay? be strong and stop finding excuses to not recover ive been in your shoes addiction is a bitch but you can do it get on your knees and pray for the strength to do it first...
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