hey all, Ive been pretty down in the dumps lately. i found out 4 of my best friends started using i tried talking with them and trying to help and tell them its a bad idea but hey theyre addicts now they dont listen to anything.
my boyfriend and i are at a weird point in our relationship. i try and have a conversation with him but he doesnt say A WORD! its frustrating. we are over 300 miles away and cant have one lousy conversation a day. i always end up saying good morning first he just seems uninterested. he claims he still loves me etc etc but everyday im starting to believe less and less. which is upsetting. we are coming up on 2 years of dating and i dont know if it will last.
ive been sick with stupid sinus and cough sore throat losing my voice shit for 2 weeks and its not getting better at all! im about ready to say screw it im not leaving my bed forever.
welp theres your update. hopefully i can check back in more often.
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"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent."
Thanks for checking in. I can't keep anyone clean but me. I'm sorry your friends are using again, but hopefully you won't be. Don't use and go to meetings.
Pain shared truly is pain lessened!! These are the times, as you are aware, that the insidious monster trys working its hardest to "TAKE' us back. Justdont use and as difficult as it may seem ,seek that Higher Power and instill a 3rd Step completely in body ,mind and spirit in your life, and, for me, I always find reaching out to another sick and suffering individual helps me. We cannot carry the addict only the message. Our 12th STEP tells us PART OF our SPIRITUAL AWAKENING, IS a new understanding of our Higher Power ,we develop by working with another addict(in recovery) WE do be come visons of hope, examples the program works and our joy in living clean is an attraction to that still sick and suffering individual.....Work your own process and be that VISION...!.Peace... Really good to see ya!!!!
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
and as of today my sister is no longer talking to me because i told her the truth while shes complaining about her life and told her shes an idiot. good rid dins you can drop dead for all i care.
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"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent."
Honesty can be a destructive force if not used with tact. When offering critical feedback to people, it is important for me to do thoughtfully and lovingly.
"Honesty can be a destructive force if not used with tact. When offering critical feedback to people, it is important for me to do thoughtfully and lovingly."
_Dave.__ Yes, the hurtful truth telling isnt good at all. It hurts and keeps people away. This is a people program, I need everyone.
That said, seems like youre doing ok Liz. Remember, sometimes we are doing better than we are feeling.
Most importantly, a day clean is a day won.... waiting to see more of you on FB too.. Hugz...
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
HI Liz, Always great to hear from you, although I wish your "checking in" was a little more up beat. I always say that young people have it rough in recovery because finding friends who are abstinant from drugs is hard. Y'know....I can go to a party and the chances of someone openly doing drugs are slim and none. When I was in my 20's it was almost guaranteed. I'm glad your staying focused on your recovery and not being pulled to the dark side by relapsing friends. As for your boyfriend.....Long distance releationships are difficult to maintain. Maybe it's time to let go. As for your sister. Telling the truth can be a gift or weapon.
Hi Liz good on you for sharing this stuff and sometimes thats all we can do is share it and get the damn stuff off our chest. Dont hold it things build up like a pressured bottle then we explode.
WE can't fix everything or everybody depend on higher power to do what we can't do and you hang in there workin a good program...
Liz. i'll keep this on me, but it is often said that the real secret of an unsatisfied life lies often in an unsurrendered will. And for forgiveness,from a dude who was "grudge to the grave stricken" I truly learned that there really is no torment like the inner torment of an unforgiving spirit.There is a Power greater than each of us who can bring that "peace that surpasses all understanding".I share this not from a Pulpit but from my own personaL ESH. As my eyes are mercifully opened each morning,before rising,I make a truly sincere 3rd/11th Step committment and put on my armour for the day! The WORK then begins!!! Keep sharing and free yourself,at your age It was only incoherence and oblivion for me....WE ,in recovery,are truly blessed
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
hi liz...sounds like your going thru some STUFF! just keep on doing the next recovery right thing and something better will happen for you....just keep faith...our h.p never gives us more then we can handle and the rewards are rich...sometimes living life on it own terms can be a nightmare this i know all too much...but i also know that when i get to the other side that i am a stronger person. the kind of person i have hoped of being...life isant always easy but tommorow always has something different as they say this too shall pass...keep on keepin on and you will be so much better off then if you lose your way....sending love your way as we all do... and a hug too((((((liz)))))). and 3rd step prayer all the way thru whatever STUFF you are going thru.....and the serenity prayer too...love you!
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