feeling them....wow i cried over a cartoon pixar "up" who does this? sounds crazy maybe, but i gotta say i am so grateful to feel anything...so laugh if you will,,,i will too...because it was amazing to cry at a cartoon.
Thank You God for this gift! Grateful!
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feeling them....wow i cried over a cartoon pixar "up" who does this? sounds crazy maybe, but i gotta say i am so grateful to feel anything...so laugh if you will,,,i will too...because it was amazing to cry at a cartoon.
Thank You God for this gift! Grateful!
I so remember when I was able to first feel a damn thing after getting clean it was shocking to me. The first feeling that I had which totally threw me off was a feeling of belonging finally. I have never felt as if I EVER BELONGED anywhere. So I wasn't too sure how to deal with the feeling.
I remember talking to my Sponsor Sam and what I heard at a meeting when I brought the topic up on feelings. The guy said, "Feelings are neither right nor wrong, it is how we act upon our feelings that are right and wrong." I could relate. I always ran from my feelings.
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Just Keep ON KEEPING ON!!!!!!!!!! If we live we are just pretty lucky
It's so awesome to hear how happy you are with feeling genuine emotions, Kelly! Your posts are giving me something to look forward to in the coming months. Thank you for that.
Crying at a cartoon is nothing novel for me. I cry for them all. Heck, I even cry at "Glee". It seems to be my brain's way of letting all of the pain that I should feel in real life situations come out.
What I do not cry over, however, are serious situations in my life which should bring about true emotions. My child can be telling me how my actions have negatively impacted her life and caused her so much pain, or my partner can be telling me that my behavior is putting our very relationship in jeopardy, and I've got nothing for them. I won't know what to say or how to react, because I won't even feel anything at all. I will think "shame" or "guilt" or maybe just "sorry I got caught", but not truly feel them.
when we used we become numb or i know i did i went through those same unfeeling times....but given time and some step work and your higher power you should be coming in to feelings for those we hurt and or harmed....but it takes time and let me tell ya now for me it was very uncomfortable to let these feelings in and out i wanted to forget them as soon as i got them but i by the grace of god made it thru to the ....other side which i used to run from know at the time as the DARK SIDE. and im so grateful to be ablle to feel anything at all both the feelings i love and those i wished i didnt have to feel...i have days still where i dont want to feel anything and the great thing is i get to feel them anyway...yhat is one tyhing i was told when i surrendered my addiction to this program ' that there was good news and bad news good news was i would be able to feel again bad news is i was gonna be able to feel again" and it all true! so good luck and thank you for your reply im right there with ya...glad your here too! talk to ya soon
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