I haven''t been here for awhile, not that I don't want to be here...I do. I just don't have Internet service anymore. I had to make a decision earlier last month on Internet or Vehicle Insurance. I couldn't afford both. I chose my Vehicle Insurance. I still have my websites up and going and have found a device that picks up Internet connection but not on my terms. LOL I sure hope it is legal?!! I bought the device from Wal-Mart.
I've been doing OK the holidays are here. I so wish I could just access the Internet whenever I wanted, there have been a few times that even after so long without using, I have found myself in a not so good of a spot.
My Son has moved back to where I live about a month ago. It has been a long time since I've been so close to him. I don't have a lot of contact with Him yet though. It saddens me that even after all of these years that my children seem to avoid me or maybe it is just that they are so young that they are living there lives. who would want to be or hang around a sober old man anyways? Sure if I got high they would want to be around.
Sometimes I wonder what is the point anyways after all these years. My health isn't going to improve physically, but it sure would be a lot worse if I started to get high again everyday.
Well I better go ahead and stop for now. I had this on my other computer this site but this device I have don't work for vista or windows 7 so I am on my backup PC which is slow anyways.
If I dont' see you before Christmas have a wonderful day and blessings to all of you.
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Just Keep ON KEEPING ON!!!!!!!!!! If we live we are just pretty lucky
It saddens me that even after all of these years that my children seem to avoid me or maybe it is just that they are so young that they are living there lives. who would want to be or hang around a sober old man anyways? Sure if I got high they would want to be around.
I understand the first part. When I don't hear from my adult children for a while I get all sulky. Then I get a call, or a call back, and i'm all cheery again. I really need to accept that they are living their very busy lives, that they love me, but at this stage of our lives, I need attention from them more than they need it from me. As much as i have progressed in the program, it's still so much ALL ABOUT ME!!!! LOL....sad but true. But what about the second part? The "Sure if I got high they would want to be around."? Are you saying that if you got hight they would want to be around you? I guess if they are using that might be true, but I know for me it would crush any remaining feelings they have for me. I Have disappointed them so many times in their lives, I really do not want to go down that road again. Merry Christmas everybody.
Blessings man,good to see you Merry Christmas,gratitude for another day of life free from active drug addiction and seeking that "concious contact" with the God of our understanding in all our endeavors.Peace.......
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
