My name is JoJo i am 24 and struggling with this horribe addiction agian :(
I had 2 1/2 years clean with no methadone nor suboxone and had a relapse then got on the methadone clinic and for some reason i been having cocaine cravings bad i been clean off the opiates since march 2011 but these cocaine cravings will not go away an suggestions??? I probably should go to meetings but feel awakward going by myself and knowing people been clean for years and i keep messing up! I feel sooo lost :(
The natural state for any addict is loaded and wanting to get loaded. The NA program has proven sucessful for us. Start by going to 90 NA Meetings in 90 days.
Feeling awkward is normal for us addicts, go to NA Meetings anyway. We used drugs to mask our feelings. Over time our feelings of awkwardness are replaced by acceptance.
Doesn't matter if you have one day Clean, are still loaded, or have many years Clean, going to NA Meetings is the solution.
Doesn't matter if you relapsed, that's what our disease of addiction wants us to do, go to NA Meetings. There is no miracle cure, but One Day at a Time recovery is possible. And each day Clean is a Miracle!
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Work the Steps or Die MF. (My Friend :) Clean One Day At a Time by The Grace of God through The Power of NA
plese do yourself a favor and get in a meeting. it is hard to get back in the rooms after relapse but it was just a relapsem and most of those people started out with relapse too so thedy understand. please don't let that stop you from getting clean...let go and let god or if you prefer let your higher power. i did the same thing i felt embarrassed because i relapsed but when i got back i felt the love and it wasnt what i had done it wasnt about relapse they were happy to see me make it back. And all i had to do was get out of my own way and just get to that meeting and today i am 8 months clean AGAIN! just go! it sounds like you already know that but your addiction has a grip on you but that is how addiction works right ? so get your butt ianto a chair at a meeting the relapse is behind you. good luck and god bless!
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kelly lofquist
Dont stress over what couldve been, chances are if it shouldve been, it wouldve been...
yea well, we cant save ass and face at the same time,, swallowing false pride, getting to meetings, 90 in 90 continously, and being Higher Powered is a good state for the addict to be.
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
Hi and welcome....you know what you need to do. You said "I probably should go to meetings" and I couldn't agree more. Are you really going to let something as stupid as feeling a little embarrassed keep you from getting the help you need to shake this horrible deadly disease? REALLY???? there is nothing unusual about an addict relapsing....Hell, using drugs is what we do! The sad thing would be not to go to a meeting and ask for help. Believe me, nobody is going to think less of you for doing this. If your sick and tired of being sick and tired, then give yourself a break and get to an NA meeting....right now!!!
Welcome, I second what others have said. I know it feels uncomfortable going to meetings at first, but I'm sure you will find that people there are understanding and caring and have lots of valuable experience, strength, and hope. Going to NA meetings was the best decision I ever made. It saved my life and gave me my life back.
Jojo, I know from my own experiences as a struggling on-and-off member in the fellowship over a few years (I have relapsed many a times after good cleantimes) that when I reach out like you have done here and share about what I'm going through, I do it because I want out and I'm asking for help. That's a very good sign. You yourself have suggested that you perhaps make a meeting, wonderful! When I was as open-minded as you are here, all I needed to do was to ignore the voice inside, of my addiction, trying it's best to keep me away from help, meetings and fellowship, and continue to follow the process of seeking help and receiving it. Make a meeting, flow! It does get better as we keep making one meeting after another, I've found myself relieved of the compulsion to continue using after a week of meetings at times, then all of a sudden, there's no looking back. I find myself caught up with meetings, fellowship, program, literature and what not! It Works!
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
I am going to be honest with you have a cocaine and opiate addiction is probably the hardest thing to recover from. But Many have done it. I know this may sound a little unorthodox, but I'm going to give you different advice because just going to meetings may not help, they will help you STAY clean but they may not help you get clean. First, I would see your suboxone doctor, and see if he can get you back on a program (i know in my state that includes counseling) At the same time Get Back In The Rooms. The people in the rooms will give you the support you will need for when you get off of suboxone(for when those cocaine cravings come). Again, I am only speaking of my own personal excpeience and what has worked for me.
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My name is JoJo i am 24 and struggling with this horribe addiction agian :(
I had 2 1/2 years clean with no methadone nor suboxone and had a relapse then got on the methadone clinic and for some reason i been having cocaine cravings bad i been clean off the opiates since march 2011 but these cocaine cravings will not go away an suggestions??? I probably should go to meetings but feel awakward going by myself and knowing people been clean for years and i keep messing up! I feel sooo lost :(
jojo after over 5 years clean i'm having the same cravings but cocaine is my drug of choice, What I do know about myself is that I have a great deal of discomfort going on inside of me and that discomfort is wanting to be medicated.
So i'm talking about this discomfort and coming to terms with it, I have to accept the way I feel and how hurtful it is for me, emotionally, spiritually its taken a toll.
I'd say theres some serious discomfort going on inside of you. I have tried to get back to basics and share, pray, meditate more and deal with the discomfort. I hate being bothered by these cravings but its whats going on inside thats screaming and hurt, find that out it will help, and just dont use for now.
