well here i am feeling hopeless again. reason? there is none. im still happy with life but feelings of sadness and hopelessness and welp depression is back.
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And so it goes, huh? I'd check into therapy - it helped me the first year of recovery. Sometimes just having someone to listen to my "oh poor me"s and give me something to work on was really beneficial. :) I could use it today... having to read through quality manuals/policies at work while there's a jackhammer going right outside the window is enough to make me "go home sick." hehehe
Hi liz! Depression aint no jone,Like Raman says ,see someone about clinical depression ,its real not something people will tell you to "snap out of it" thing..You know there is a site called"Depression Forum" (can just google) maybe share and identify with people in similar situations.May make you more depressed??? anyway .always in prayer and support for ya!!,ITS good you are keeping in touch with us ,isolation is definitely not helpful,good sleep,good eats/fresh air/goals to shoot for.helping others all can be beneficial,but I certainly aint no doctor....Was once a Doctor of Drugology and Mixology ,lost my license to practice,thank God :)
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Hi Liz, Yes. Those of us with depression have our good days and our bads ones for sure. I am happy to report that after working 12 steps of narcotics anonymous and incorporating spiritual principles into my life, my episodes are much less frequent and much less severe. this is huge, because I have been incapacitated with depression on many occassions over many many years. Surrender to the disease of addiction and the program of Narcotics Anonymous has given me a new life. It's so simple to just declare that recovery is your priority, that you are putting your health and peace of mind above all other concerns, and then find a sponsor, go to meetings, work the steps, and strive to "practice these principles in all your affairs" Don't be afraid to seek happiness and fullfillment. You deserve it.
im doing better emotionally that is ha. sunday i got kicked by a horse right in the back of my knee and it hurts so bad. plus the bruising goes all the way up my thigh and down to my ankle. it hurts to walk. it hurts to bend it and straigten it. i would show you in a picture but its real gross. its deep purple and black and GROSS! atleast some of the swelling is going down but not much. still gotta go to work and move around and do things. OH and something that just popped in my head i guess my car will be dead within the next year and i dont make enough money to buy a new one or even a used one (well the one i want anyways :) ) so i have to decide if im going to quit my job where i make 8.50 an hour 5 hours a day 5 days a week or find a new job which ill be making minimum wage but work myself to death. suggestions would be great. so thats how im doing.
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Sorry to hear about the horse kick. You certainly have been getting banged up lately. As for the job situation ...that's a tough call. These days it's better to stay with a job till you find a better one. With your transportation being iffy, maybe whichever one is closer to bus routes is best. Always good to hear from you. Hope the news gets better real soon.
No, seriously. It's one of those things that's out of our control. Sometimes when we pray, our HP puts things in our path that are even better than we imagined... if we let it...
We were planning a move to Portland, but that never came through. Instead, I've been pushing myself to do more fulfilling things in my life where I'm at TODAY! I can't just expect things to happen for me, either. I have to put in the foot work.
Maybe a better, higher paying job will fall on your plate, or you will decide to head back to school again, or a dirt-cheap vehicle will be for sale on the way back to work, or you'll decide to move. Who knows! Life is amazing when you just sit back and listen for your HP's will for you. :)
