Our egos, once so large and dominant, now take a back seat because we are in harmony with a loving God. We find that we lead richer, happier, and much fuller lives when we lose self-will.
Basic Text, p. 105
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Addiction and self-will go hand in hand. The unmanageability that we admitted to in Step One was as much a product of our self-will as it was of our chronic drug abuse. And today, living on self-will can make our lives just as unmanageable as they were when we were using. When our ideas, our desires, our demands take first place in our lives, we find ourselves in constant conflict with everyone and everything around us.
Self-will reflects our reliance on ego. The only thing that will free us from self-will and the conflict it generates in our lives is to break our reliance on ego, coming to rely instead on the guidance and power offered us by a loving God.
We are taught to consult spiritual principles, not our selfish desires, in making our decisions. We are taught to seek guidance from a Higher Power, one with a larger vision of things than our own. In doing this, we find our lives meshing more and more easily with the order of things around us. No longer do we exclude ourselves from the flow of life; we become a part of it, and discover the fullness of what recovery has to offer.
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Just for today: I seek freedom from ego and the conflicts generated by self-will. I will try to improve my conscious contact with the God of my understanding, seeking the guidance and power I need to live in harmony with my world.
The only thing that will free us from self-will and the conflict it generates in our lives is to break our reliance on ego, coming to rely instead on the guidance and power offered us by a loving God.
I Surely did need to read this this morning, I swear i dont feel like I mesh with life and other people, at least it doesnt feel like I do, i feel like i'm having to shove my will and my way along constantly.
More prayer and meditation, more turning my will and life over to gods care and direction and less trying to get what I want out of life, people, places and situations, EEEESH!!!!!
Yup - we need to "get over ourselves" and our ego(s) and stop trying to run (GOD'S) show. We need to SURRENDER OUR WILL, admit defeat, being licked. and pray to the god of our understanding - that we may do HIS WILL and NOT OUR WILL. Get yourself sick and tired of being sick and tired. Many won't until THEY HIT ROCK BOTTOM! We need to get clean and stop trying to take "our medicine" which is an inept way to deal with a SPIRITUAL DISEASE. Get clean , stay clean 1 day at a time and keep coming back !
