AS october 11th starts to near i find my self still pisses off i was to stupid to even pull that off i still hate the world rather or not i still put my smile on i have been faking it till i make it since but does the desire of death after being so close ever go away as for me i try to calculate where i went wrong the day near i am in nothing but tears once again consumed by my fears
notable to work the fairr this \year as it open today i will so miss it i'll get to visit but o work physcially and mentally not up to it i blew my knee out not too long ago in a brace till i know if they are going to open it up again kidney has completly failed at this point i have some good things tooI am starting to date again the fact that thru this mess i call me he is still there for me as i am for him this isthe first person i have dated since "Dr. Dick" thats what friends and ffamily call him i found out thru therapy i agree my herat is shy to move on but HE HAS NO POEWR OVER ME WHAT SOEVER PERIOD he had his years stuck in my head now with a simple grin i can move on
lots of things keep running thru my head making this time of year rough but i still tread the waters that can never b the same
just needed to clear my mind
-- Edited by Manon on Thursday 29th of September 2011 07:06:07 AM
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