This Sunday, going to have a couple Venison roasts and some steaks ,the last of my take from last season as Bow season(Deer Hunting) begins here in a couple weeks in Upstate New York! Having some recovering addicts and some sponsees over for good clean fun and fellowship, do some Step work, eat some Venison(just like Robin Hood AND HIS MERRY MEN)and maybe watch some football!l When I think back to the events of my life that use to keep me locked and loaded while in the grip and look at life now, I am truly so grateful.Through God's grace and mercy, the program of Narcotics Anonymous, some real inside honesty "my new way of life" is so beautiful, even when it is raining!!Being able to share our ESH and hearts with others, breakin bread and laughing from our inner souls is something I would never have dreamed possible many cups of coffee ago until I came to the emotional acceptance of utter defeat, made an admission,yes I am an addict ,and realized that it would take a Power greater than myself and application of a process in the attitudes and behaviors of my life to change my ways..It is a daily process.......If you are new or just coming around, the message,our message is HOPE,and the promise of freedom from active drug addiction,the rest we continue to show up for(a threefold illness,mental,spiritual and physical),a daily reprieve, maintaining a fit spiritual condition and sharing our lives with others just like us !Life on Life's terms will be accompanied by many different emotions and feelings,some painful ,some joyous...,for me , I thank God for everything, try and learn from every situation.Today I can FEEL, and that alone is a blessing...peace.....
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
I know what I missed all the years of me going in and out, and that was simple, not having fun in recovery.
My counselor used to say that if you are not having fun, or finding ways to have fun in recovery that you will end up relapsing. Steps are always good, sponsorship (couldn't live without Him), all in all though we have to find things that we enjoy doing to replace the substance that had us trapped.
I think that is why I like building websites, it is fun (most of the time), I enjoy seeing something come to life, and it keeps my mind busy. With my health, it is basically all I have left is Internet. So you can be social via Internet. It is a wonderful tool for recovery and fellowship as well. I have even built sites for others in recovery, so there is always excitement.
Although I have times when I don't feel as if I do belong, I have to remember that is my head talking to me, the "Voices In My Head" is what I call them.
This coming Saturday I will have a few of my friends and my closed mouth friend come over to watch the Nebraska Cornhusker Game. It will be fun, fellowship, food, and just a day to enjoy each other and company. Something funny, instead of drinking beer we will have coffee and or soda. We will talk recovery that is a given. It just is a new life without the use of drugs and alcohol
Thanks for sharing.
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Just Keep ON KEEPING ON!!!!!!!!!! If we live we are just pretty lucky
