The last few days, maybe moreso the last week, I've been going crazy! Maybe it's just stress from work, plus taking 2 online classes... but maybe it's the weather.
It's starting to change seasons around here and I've barely gotten 2 dozen tomatoes out of my garden. Kinda depressing, especially when the plants looked so nice this year! It's about 50 degrees out and cloudy.
Anyway, so I've been a royal b**ch at work, at home, simply put: not easy to be around. It's been really hard getting out of bed in the morning... feels like waking the dead.
Last night, we had our women's meeting and every single woman, after sharing on our topic (step 5) stopped and said something along the lines of: "Oh my god I have to get this off my chest before I explode or use..." and went off on the same exact stuff that was going through my mind (the perpetual crabbiness, moodiness, sluggishness).
Talk about the importance of going to meetings! Even with life's doldrums, I find that I'm not alone and maybe sometimes... just sometimes... it's just the weather. :)
The meetings are THERAPY, talk therapy we need to be able to express and discuss or at the least dump, so you done good, regular meetins are important for most of us i hate going sometimes but I NEED to hear others share and now and then i need to share.
Staying in the spiritual light isn't always easy I go threw the same crappy days you mentioned, this to shall pass but its important to look deep, find the source of irritation, pray and meditate on it, see whats revealed.
I got maybe 8 medium size tomatoes and maybe 30 cherry tomatoes off my plants this year last year it was crazy i had thousands of cherry toms but it wasnt as hot here this year, Now i did get TONS of squash i had 6 plants and htey all produced really well, my corn sucked too 6 ears out of 30 plants but my pride n joy was my contelopes OMG they were so delicous :)
Oh wow!!! We didn't get to plant until early June this year because of the rain.
Our green beans and peas produced ALL SUMMER! We finally pulled them after the frost we got last week. Luckily I got the tomatoes covered, though. Might get a few more...
My acorn squash plant died. I don't know what the heck happened. I went outside one afternoon and it was laying flat, the small squash were already starting to rot. Go-figure. Even with a nasty hail storm this summer, we still got some really awesome kohlrabi, radishes, cucumbers, and (my favorite) multi-colored carrots! :)
Oh and my ONE basil plant produced 10 pints of pesto. Yeah. That rocked.
So I guess having a tomato issue this year isn't the worst thing that could have happened. :)
The therapeutic value of one addict helping another, true that!!! We all got them rainy day(sometimes weeks blues)difference now,in recovery, we know there is a solution,share the pain or whatever it is,know we are not unique and being grateful to be able to have some "cheese with our whine(keep this definitely on me!!!! :) Keeping our Higher Power on top of it all!! Love it when I can stay focused and involved,helps me get inside when the doors are squeezed tight! Thanks for the help Amanda!! Living the NA way....ooooohhhh yeahhhhhh as Randy Savage used to say!!!
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
Our meetings can be wonderful venues for airing our feelings in a safe environment and receiving some experience, strength, and hope. Glad you are getting the help you need.
Im going to try whistling "Traumerei" to myself next time I get weirded,,,,,
Sometimes in these events, with all the people and the music and the buzz, sometimes I lose it. I feel like a great horse, suddenly gone weird, and neighing !!!!!
That's where I need others in NA to come down......like calming down and being with my own soul again.......
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
yeah remember a few days ago when i was a total bitch and cranky when i was talking to you! it must be the weather. but in 35 minutes it will be the first day of fall! my favorite season.
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Fall, what's that? LOL....It will hit 90 again today. but the mornings and evenings are getting a little cooler, so I guess by Florida standards this is autumn. As for meetings being therapy? There is no denying the theraputic value of a meeting, but i sometimes have issues with meetings becoming group therapy sessions. Think i'll start another thread about that. anyone...sounds like your little rant did you alot of good. Another day clean, is another successful day.
hEY dON! GOOD POINT,OUR 12TH STEP TELLS US BY SHOWING UP AND DUMPING ALL OF OUR PROBLEMS WITHOUT SOMEHOW RELATING TO OUR SOLUTION OR TYING TO A MESSAGE OF RECOVERY, DOESNT REALLY SERVE OUR PRIMARY PURPOSE.ITS A THIN LINE BETWEEN SHARING AS WE NEED TO (YOUR DOG IS NOT EATING WELL,DIDNT HAVE ENOUGH TO BUY THEM NEW JEANS,GETTING FAT AND IM NOT LIKIN IT ETC)THINGS THAT MAY BE DEBATABLE ON AFFECTING YOUR RECOVERY AND MAYBE NOT HELPING THE PERSON SITTING NEXT TO YOU..10TH TRADITION ALSO TELLS US ANYTHING IS SHARING MATERIAL AS LONG IS WE SAY IT IS OUR OWN STUFF,SHARING FROM OUR OWN EXPERIENCE,NOT AN OPINION, AND NOT NECESSARILY THAT OF NA,THAT WE ARE WORKING TOWARD THE SOLUTION AND NOT STUCK IN THE PROBLEM,WE ARE NOT DEVISIVE TRYING TO DRAW SIDES.AS LONG AS WE KEEP OUR COMMON WELFARE AND OUR PRIMARY PURPOSE WE CAN AVOID DISTRACTING THINGS FROM OUR RECOVERIES.YES WOULD BE A GREAT TOPIC,IM SURE EVERYONE OF US HAVE ROLLED OUR EYES IN OUR HEAD AT SOMETIME AND SAID WHAT THE HECK DOES THAT HAVE TO DO WITH THE PRICE OF APPLES! PRACTICING TOLERANCE,PATIENCE AND PERSERVERANCE TAKES WORK,(I'LL KEEP THIS ON ME..:) SORRY FOR THE CAPS CANT TYPE AND LOOK UP!!! :)
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Good point. I was always told to never bring up a problem without having a possible solution. The only solutions I had were to pray and to do some 10th step work for myself. Then last night (Thursday), I was at a stick meeting and drew the topic "surrender" and it all started to click. It's funny how we forget the simple things, eh?
