Physically, I am beginning to feel better but emotionally I seem to be a wreck. I'm sure the lack of sleep contributes to my emotions as does the lack of opiates...its very hard to take on all these feelings when I am so used to being numb. My marriage is in trouble, finances are in trouble, very few friends that arent druggies, and the onslaught of my neck and back pain without oxycontin. However, on the bright side I am going to my 1st NA meeting tonite and I am hopeful. I am going if I can keep it together that is...without breaking down.
Hi Paula,,, how honest of you. Thanks for reminding me that this is why we begin to accept that "our lives had become unmanageable".
I was in a continous spaced out state in the first year of my recovery.. Important thing was that there were no more having to deal with drug use; just the emotions to sort out !! Recovery hugs !
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
Would love to hear about your experience at your first NA meeting. Here'e hoping it was a source of hope for you. Keep coming back. thanks for posting.
Like I said yesterday get to meetings NO MATTER WHAT. Who gives a rip about keeping it together emotionally. I'm a fifty something hope to die dope fiend DUDE and I've blubbered like a baby in meetings. So what! This is about saving your LIFE! You can't save your ass and your face at the same time! Just walk, crawl, stumble in the door what ever it takes and find Your seat. It's waiting for you, it's yours, nobody can take it from you. There is great power in the rooms of NA, power to change our lives, tap into it. But ya gotta get there first!
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Work the Steps or Die MF. (My Friend :) Clean One Day At a Time by The Grace of God through The Power of NA
However, on the bright side I am going to my 1st NA meeting tonite and I am hopeful. I am going if I can keep it together that is...without breaking down. 
