Hey Liz! I know for me I had to keep my mind occupied to refocus on other things when I was stuck. I remember when I first got Tinnitus,1986(a loud whistling in my left ear from loud sounds drums/shotguns)I had to find something to take my mind off the noise(a whistling teapot at the boil in my head,never stops)or I thought I would go insane.The fear of the noise and maybe going to both sides of my hearing made it even worse if I would concentrate on it...It is still as loud today as it was in 1986 but I have used different techniques to refocus,I sleep with a sound machine and try to stay out of places that are totally quiet(there is never any quiet for me)When I meditate I work hard to focus around the noise and am able to put it aside.It was the same with withdrawals and finding a new way to live without drugs,everyone I hung with and things I did had to be addressed in a new light. Each day we work thru the "noise"(withdrawal/life on life's terms/pain,relationships etc) we reenforce a positive experience of getting through ,a day at a time and become ready to approach another day if so blessed.Stay strong this minute,next hour,next 24 and tomorrow ,if granted,can become a "new dawning" a NOW day(no opportunity wasted)day..definitely in prayer and support,glad to see you reaching out,we can't get help if we don't let others no where we are at! peace and serenity!!
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
One day at a time Liz. You can do it. Got phone numbers? Do you call people? prayer, prayer, and more prayer. meditate if you can....it really is a skill worth acquiring. If you can move around a little, some physical activity. Prayers for you. You can do it. Just remember each day of pain brings you one day closer to freedom.
